badminton & running

i know some ppl out there wanna kill me.... hee~! i just won the britney spears greatest hits album from perfect 10... been waiting for a month to make the call~!! haha, i guess the patience paid off~!! yeah~!! i'm so happy~!!

hmm... went shopping yesterday... yes, town again... haha, this time, to buy my bag... hmm, bought an op skirt too~!! i'm so happy, i really love my skirt... hmm, i'm mad... anyway...

peishan called just now.... i thought she was angry with me for cancelling our meeting twice... haha, suntaning at the beach alone... so cool~!!! hee~!! later, will be darker then me~!! hmm.... glad that she's not mad....

went to play badminton with my sis, hmm, she's not bad, i must say.... there's improvement.... hmm, off to running now... hopefully, i have the strength... haha... cya~!!!

sunday blues...

many yearn for exams to be over... i'm no exception.... nevertheless, it's kind of scary... there is nothing to look forward to, in the sense that there's just no aim... u don't know what to do... it's just a never-ending tunnel of possibilities... but, there is no dead-end even.... it's just a long long stretch of pathway... haha... job-looking.... many are looking for MOE... will i get it?? i'm not sure... if i get it, then i have one less worry... it's like, after the exams, there's just so many things to consider... something like the first step into society... haha...

hmm... many things are happening these few days.... mostly to do with my feelings.... different people have different styles... i hate it when others butt in for no apparent reason... mind ur own bloody business... what's the point in voicing things out?? i don't like to quarrel with someone who has absolutely no sense of self-awareness... how can u take it out on me just because i don't respond back... u r so so stupid... whateva... i hope u get ur just deserts... don't think u can lord over me just because u like... it's because i'm just freaking tired of it... there's really no point... cos, nothing is ever wrong with u... selfish beings... have u ever thought of how i feel instead of u u u & u... selfish... anyway, it doesn't matter.... what's more important is that u r not hurt.... why do i even bother so much?

anyway, i just need to let it out, cos, u let it out on me... i'll just let it out on the com...

i hope it stops raining, so that i can go running... i need it...

shopping... broke....

went shopping today... again... what's new?? hmm, went to buy my prom top.... shopping with my mom is such a bother... she likes to criticise everything i wear.... hiaz... that's mothers for u... hmm.... i'm so sick of shopping.... my legs are getting whobbly from all the walking... in addition, i still have to buy accessories... it's fun, in a way... but then, once everything is settled, i can breathe easier... hiaz...

oh, and my phone... it's spoilt... it's a long story... anyway, i'm using my younger sis's phone... hiaz... it's so bad.... why does my phone have to spoil now?? and it's not totally my fault... hiaz... i don't understand why am i so neutral abt everything?? maybe it's my ability to see everyone as wrong... haha, therefore, i seldom get angry... however, i keep everything to myself... nobody wants to know... so, does it make me feel better?? hiaz... it's ok... sometimes, it's just better not to dwell so much...

my operation is scheduled on march... what the shit?? how am i gonna find a permanent yet temporary job?? irritating... hiaz... whateva... hmm, bought alota stuff... two tops... i better curb my spending... cos, i'm BROKE!! haha, so long...

shopping~!!

"A"s was over yesterday... can't say that i'm particularly exhilariated... i have not been fully concentrating on the "A"s... it's just like something that i have to do.... hmm...

went to watch the princess diaries 2 and the incredibles yesterday... haha, the princess show is like the usual fluff... it's so romantic~!! haha... incredibles was great~!! the baby was so so cute~!! hmm, i think it's great the family can overcome all odds to fight the evil... love is such an inexplainable thing, powerful and indestructible~!!! haha... it was a nice day... went with yoke, xiuz, xinyi and dear shu ying... haha, the poor gal, exams end next tues... take care, it's gonna be over~!!! yoke, hmm, going malaysia... haha, will hope to see her soon~!!

went shopping with my both sisters today... i think it's our first outing in like 3 years... it was quite fun... nonetheless, it was tiring~!!! prom is such a bother!!! i'm fat... can't find anything... i hate to try on so many, then, it's such a disappointment... found some stuff, just hope that my mum approves of it... i don't wanna keep finding... it's so irritating.... aargh~!! we shopped from 1-6 plus.... without shopping... how wonderful?? haha, i saw many people today... xinyi and jo... haha, orchard is like a place of meetings... s'pore is just so small~!!

hmm, i really hope sat's shopping trip will be over and done with~!! aargh~!! gonna do more and more exercise to lose weight!!! i'm fat~!!

2 more days~!

today's history and econs... hmm, think my econs is pretty screwed!! hiaz, it's ok... i did my best... just pray real hard... hmm, the hist questions were somewhat not expected... hopefully, my answering was alright... i really wanna get an A...

went to my aunt's hse at the spur of the moment... then went to j8 and eat ljs with my sister... the wrap is not bad... haha, then i walked ard, trying to get inspiration for my prom attire... hmm, i don't think it's that a difficult task.. haha, quite fun...

hmm... last paper soon... count down, 2 more days~!!

nothing much...

i thought the day will never come that sly will get into the finals... u know what? singapore is so so blind.... he, in w0rld idol?? oh my god!! but then again, taufik will win, cos sly is just too too bad!! he looks bad, sings bad, has bad attitude.... the list just goes on... singapore has only blind giggly teenagers who can't differentiate between talent and ugly/funny looks... come on?? fair competition... anyway, who i'm i to judge? taufik's gonna win... that is one good thing why sly is in the last 2... to show how good taufik is against him... anyway, he won't win... sux sux!! olinda... good work... will miss your vocals... something u can boast about... sly has none, take comfort in that... yeah~!!

hiaz, ok, enough... sly's fans gonna kill me... cos, they know what i say is true... they are trying to stop me from bitching abt his pathetice skills. none for the record... ok, ok...

hmm, lit today was alright... i think... peishan did the same qns as me~!! haha, not bad, same minds think alike~!! hmm, i really like mr whitby's paper... hopefully, it's alright... hmm, sometimes, i hate being such a sensitive person... i can't help disliking someone... should not, but... hiaz, i don't know lar...

i don't have any mood to study at all~!! hopefully, i can~!!

general

now, my frens are currently taking their history exams, while i'm enjoying myself in front of the computer... hiaz, i can't wait for all this to be over... i'm supposed to be studying history... haha, just read some outlines, and basically slacking... hmm, overconfidence?? erm, no, haha, i just think that i can finish studying... i don't have a memorising mind now... excuses?? probably... haha...

hiaz, i was just thinking abt econs again... i know, i'm a dumb dumb, but i just can't help it... i gave it my best shot... hopefully... hiaz...

hmm, i think abt stuff alot... yeah, i know everybody thinks... hiaz... i was just recollecting the time when i went back to bp during teachers' day... hmm, i remember my science teacher from sec 2 whose also from bp... he said that bp doesn't know how to cultivate loyalty from the students... at first, i do not believe him, but i agree with him now... he was chased out due to disagreemtns with other teachers... the guy from creative is form bp, he doesn't show much appreciation towards the sch, not that i blame him... the teachers don't even really bother to talk to u much... the feeling just isn't there... i feel like a stranger... maybe the description of a stranger is to the extreme is too much... but it's really a let-down... my fren was asking me whether i would go back next year... hmm...

i was just thinking that there's nothing in nj for me to visit while i was studying there... now, i have so many wonderful teachers.... mrs tan, mr whitby, ms ng... i will never forget them... they were there to help me whenever i meet any problems... well, other teachers too, but the interaction i had with them is much more... i hope i don't disappoint them... i will definitely miss them, esp. mrs tan... she brought a whole new perspective to my life... constantly helping me because she knew that i have no confidence in my gp... taking the initiative to call me down... talking and stuff... i will miss her... will i go back? u bet...

hmm.... these kind of things, i think abt.... studies, boring... haha...