everywhere ard me is filled with the sound of mahjong... sigh.... ok lar, just that i don't have a chance to touch any mahjong tiles this year... haha... super tired now... ubin was fine, the usual, just that it's sad to see commercialism taking over the whole island... went there every year, and the changes that took place is quite obvious too....
from haphazard roads, to now, roads with directions... simple shophouses, now with bicycle rentals shops and food places.... places of poor sanitary conditions to proper places.... it's all so different... i wld be lying through my teeth if i say that i prefer the old kinds... but it's sad to see bicycles running all over the island... never see so many before... hiaz, its just the thought that the island i once knew is becoming so pretty, yet it's not what i've known... really really sad... and my relatives' hse is being taken over by the gvot too... so, no more visiting anymore.... sigh...
tmr, some relatives are coming... i hope to have some relative peace! yay! wish me luck... gonna do my tutorials... sianz!!!!
Monday, January 30, 2006
Sunday, January 29, 2006
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!
today is quite a nice day, lost quite a bit at gambling with my cousins... aargh! ok lar, quite fun, since they are kids and money means the world to them... it's all mz's fault, say i will lose... just because i insulted his usefulness.... -_-
was quite surprised when he msg me to tell me he's waiting for the bus... think he's quite bored too, otherwise, msg someone whom he knows will pay attention to him... so, sms chatted during cny, made visiting much less boring... thank you!!!
drank this nice wine that my uncle brought back from germany, or is it austria...? anyway, it's chocolate flavoured and rich with alcohol.... nice!!! now, a bit woozy... not v tired though... haha, so quite a boring new year, the usual, yet alright, in the sense that it's not always the same... i wld enjoy it more, if not for the thought that there will be homework, homework in my mind... life's like that?
going to palua ubin tmr! hope to get a nice tan!!!!
today is quite a nice day, lost quite a bit at gambling with my cousins... aargh! ok lar, quite fun, since they are kids and money means the world to them... it's all mz's fault, say i will lose... just because i insulted his usefulness.... -_-
was quite surprised when he msg me to tell me he's waiting for the bus... think he's quite bored too, otherwise, msg someone whom he knows will pay attention to him... so, sms chatted during cny, made visiting much less boring... thank you!!!
drank this nice wine that my uncle brought back from germany, or is it austria...? anyway, it's chocolate flavoured and rich with alcohol.... nice!!! now, a bit woozy... not v tired though... haha, so quite a boring new year, the usual, yet alright, in the sense that it's not always the same... i wld enjoy it more, if not for the thought that there will be homework, homework in my mind... life's like that?
going to palua ubin tmr! hope to get a nice tan!!!!
Saturday, January 28, 2006
cny's eve
i hate chinese new year... yes, i shld be lucky to have my family with me... i don't understand what's the problem with my mum.... it's not our fault that the new year tradition is such that u have to spring clean the whole damn hse... if u don't wanna do it, it's fine, nobody will complain... say we don't help, oh, come on... the whole fucking world is owing u something?? it's not our problem that u are cleaning the hse, alright... and we did clean whatever u told us to... so, stop fucking tell the whole world that ur daughters can't dress up for new year and look like a prositute....
u have ur own timetable, to wash the clothes... we can't help it when we return home late... and u have to act as though our lives are more impt than anything... u mean, we don't like to come home? well, i don't.... no matter what we do, it's just not enough ain't it? if it's so difficult to clean the hse, and spend some effort without complaining, we will not.... u don't get it? i don't really care whether the hse is fucking clean anot, i just want a mother who will stop complaining and commenting on everything as though we owe u... let me tell u, i don't fucking owe u anything....
i'm really very tired of facing this.... i do whatever u tell me too... and it's just simply not enough... what do u want?? i always tell myself, it doesn't matter at all... all these comments, all these venting of the frustrations at me... i say they don't mean a thing, it doesn't matter at all.... but in the end, it matters... what is most hurting is that i doesn't come from just my parents... i'm not trying to say that i'm a saint and don't show my temper sometimes... i'm nice... that's a fact... and i know i'm being taken advantage of, but simply, what can i do? it doesn't really matter to me, cos they are my family... the thing is, if it's done continuously towards u, verbal abuse, how can i think? positively? i'm trying, really trying... and i hope one fine day, i can overcome everything... really....
and mkting, one member has not sent me her powerpt slides yet... whatever lar, gonna try to finish it now.... irritating!!!!!!
life's good, yeah...
u have ur own timetable, to wash the clothes... we can't help it when we return home late... and u have to act as though our lives are more impt than anything... u mean, we don't like to come home? well, i don't.... no matter what we do, it's just not enough ain't it? if it's so difficult to clean the hse, and spend some effort without complaining, we will not.... u don't get it? i don't really care whether the hse is fucking clean anot, i just want a mother who will stop complaining and commenting on everything as though we owe u... let me tell u, i don't fucking owe u anything....
i'm really very tired of facing this.... i do whatever u tell me too... and it's just simply not enough... what do u want?? i always tell myself, it doesn't matter at all... all these comments, all these venting of the frustrations at me... i say they don't mean a thing, it doesn't matter at all.... but in the end, it matters... what is most hurting is that i doesn't come from just my parents... i'm not trying to say that i'm a saint and don't show my temper sometimes... i'm nice... that's a fact... and i know i'm being taken advantage of, but simply, what can i do? it doesn't really matter to me, cos they are my family... the thing is, if it's done continuously towards u, verbal abuse, how can i think? positively? i'm trying, really trying... and i hope one fine day, i can overcome everything... really....
and mkting, one member has not sent me her powerpt slides yet... whatever lar, gonna try to finish it now.... irritating!!!!!!
life's good, yeah...
Thursday, January 26, 2006
memoirs of a geisha
i'm gonna type a proper entry today.... and not those that i have sorta type for the sake of typing... because i'm in the mood now..... been really neglecting stuff that i do online because of maple, not that i'm complaining... just how life it is for me now.... right now, eyes are rather half-open.... slept for only 4 hrs yesterday.... what else? don't ask.... not complaining either... have been going to class late everyday this week... not feeling really good abt it, because i don't wanna make it a bad habit.... so, not gonna be late for lecture tmr!!!!
just feel that things have sort of shifted between us... i don't know if this feeling came abt because i'm tired, and is imagining things that are not there... i hope i am.... this frenship is rather nice, and i really don't want anything to come into it... innocent or not.... i'm not that kind of person who can crap and pretend things do not exist... i'm just not that kind... who can laugh and say it does not matter... all i can do is just pretend i don't hear anything... so, the thing is, if u really have nothing to say, just don't say it, cos it really does not help in anything.... i tend to say things without thinking, and am now regretting it, cos i think i sent out the wrong signal... i didn't mean to do that... and i don't like the way u answer me... whatever, really whatever.... i'm not even asking anything from u.... and if u really get the wrong idea, then, i think i've seen u wrongly then.... no matter what, really hope that i'm wrong...
anyway, for studies, been rather lacking behind.... really really am gonna start after cny... tt's a promise... don't know why, always feel that i'm not doing enough for sch.... hiaz.... the competition is that great... and kind of hope that it does not get to me....
now, gonna wish that everybody has a fabolous cny!!!!! yoke: hope that u have fun too...!
shld be all.... gonna do mkting soon... rather tired...
oh, forgot to talk abt memoirs of a geisha... it's not a bad show... but i wld not recommend u watching when u are tired... hmm... michelle yeoh is beautiful and cool! gong li is just so wicked!! zhang zi yi, ahh, think she's not that pretty anyway.... i don't really like the ending, kind of does not show that all the geishas shld be suffering... i prefer that, so that i can empatise more with them... but overall, a nice intrusion into the world of the geisha... they are really poor things, the upbrining and even as adults... kind of painful, preserving beauty for what? men... men.... haha... ok, gonna do mkting now! catch the show if u can!!
just feel that things have sort of shifted between us... i don't know if this feeling came abt because i'm tired, and is imagining things that are not there... i hope i am.... this frenship is rather nice, and i really don't want anything to come into it... innocent or not.... i'm not that kind of person who can crap and pretend things do not exist... i'm just not that kind... who can laugh and say it does not matter... all i can do is just pretend i don't hear anything... so, the thing is, if u really have nothing to say, just don't say it, cos it really does not help in anything.... i tend to say things without thinking, and am now regretting it, cos i think i sent out the wrong signal... i didn't mean to do that... and i don't like the way u answer me... whatever, really whatever.... i'm not even asking anything from u.... and if u really get the wrong idea, then, i think i've seen u wrongly then.... no matter what, really hope that i'm wrong...
anyway, for studies, been rather lacking behind.... really really am gonna start after cny... tt's a promise... don't know why, always feel that i'm not doing enough for sch.... hiaz.... the competition is that great... and kind of hope that it does not get to me....
now, gonna wish that everybody has a fabolous cny!!!!! yoke: hope that u have fun too...!
shld be all.... gonna do mkting soon... rather tired...
oh, forgot to talk abt memoirs of a geisha... it's not a bad show... but i wld not recommend u watching when u are tired... hmm... michelle yeoh is beautiful and cool! gong li is just so wicked!! zhang zi yi, ahh, think she's not that pretty anyway.... i don't really like the ending, kind of does not show that all the geishas shld be suffering... i prefer that, so that i can empatise more with them... but overall, a nice intrusion into the world of the geisha... they are really poor things, the upbrining and even as adults... kind of painful, preserving beauty for what? men... men.... haha... ok, gonna do mkting now! catch the show if u can!!
Monday, January 23, 2006
yay!
am really tired nowadays.... don't have a good night rest... sigh.... find it hard to concentrate in sch... and don't know what's the thing with me and monday lessons, keep going to sch late... hate to go late, yet, don't know why... gotta make an effort to try man...
went to cut hair today... quite nice the feeling of walking through my old neighbourhood... the memories keep coming back.... and the spec shop guy recognises me... haha, was quite surprised... hiaz.... don't know what kind of cut man, like no difference... waste $$$$
hmm.... life's pretty good now... hopefully it can continue... and hwee min and hui qi gave me a key chain with our pic on it!!! i luv it!!!! thanks so much!!!!
ok, gonna go off now... just glad to see that most of the people ard me are in good spirits!
went to cut hair today... quite nice the feeling of walking through my old neighbourhood... the memories keep coming back.... and the spec shop guy recognises me... haha, was quite surprised... hiaz.... don't know what kind of cut man, like no difference... waste $$$$
hmm.... life's pretty good now... hopefully it can continue... and hwee min and hui qi gave me a key chain with our pic on it!!! i luv it!!!! thanks so much!!!!
ok, gonna go off now... just glad to see that most of the people ard me are in good spirits!
Saturday, January 21, 2006
life
just came back from the annual renuion dinner at my uncle's hse... as usual, nth much to talk to the cousins abt... so ok lar, nothing out of the blue... drank beer, as usual... sigh, the usual... just that some of my cousins got attitude problem... quite funny, to see them.... just eat white rice... the company's tt bad tt u only wanna eat rice? sad ar u... how to face others in the future?? sad sad....
ok, enough time spent on this routine thing.... gonna go watch memoirs of geisha tmr... with... ok, shall say more after tmr...
sigh, just hope i can finish all my homework....
good luck to me!
ok, enough time spent on this routine thing.... gonna go watch memoirs of geisha tmr... with... ok, shall say more after tmr...
sigh, just hope i can finish all my homework....
good luck to me!
Thursday, January 19, 2006
fun day!
just got back home from sch at abt 10 pm.... really glad that i can somewhat concentrate in sch... at least, i'm focused on what i'm doing without any distractions... hmm.... had fun in sch today, playing bridge with yoke, jiaying, junhong and jiaming... crapz.... still quite bad at bridge but had fun... cos the 2 guys damn amused me.... thinking so hard and well, playing and really really thinking... and we gals, just laugh hysterically... the mood was a little tense as well, but we gals managed to lighten it up i hope... basically, we had fun!
sigh, but gotta do mkting project... and the article analysis was rather ok.... but then, feel that we could have done more... don't know why, ps like refuses to put in 100%.... well, i feel that if u can put in 100%, why not? for the final, we'll put in 150% then... well, since it's a grp thing, i shall let it go then... hiaz... whatever lar....
gonna go for family renuion dinner on saturday.... so, maybe shall do my acc homework tmr... nice food, but boring company... how shall i say, just plan bad timing... see how it goes ba...
ok, off to mapling.... hope i'll not fall aslp during acc tmr... coffee is great!
sigh, but gotta do mkting project... and the article analysis was rather ok.... but then, feel that we could have done more... don't know why, ps like refuses to put in 100%.... well, i feel that if u can put in 100%, why not? for the final, we'll put in 150% then... well, since it's a grp thing, i shall let it go then... hiaz... whatever lar....
gonna go for family renuion dinner on saturday.... so, maybe shall do my acc homework tmr... nice food, but boring company... how shall i say, just plan bad timing... see how it goes ba...
ok, off to mapling.... hope i'll not fall aslp during acc tmr... coffee is great!
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
piano
hmm... like yoke, don't know why, i seem to forget what i want to blog... but when i think abt it, i remember... so here i am... i have taken over this teacher who teaches a pair of sisters piano... and i have to break the bad news to them, that they failed their grade 2 and grade 4 practical exams.... the feeling is so bad that i could not take it... i really don't want them to fail the next grade... the thing is, i'm lacking in confidence... i know the reason, cos, i really think that without some help, i don't trust my judgement in analysing such a high grade song... and the sucky thing is... i don't want them to fail because of me... sigh... don't really enjoy going for piano lessons now... feeling stressed as saturday nears.... aargh!!!
seem to have things i wanna do... even if i have done it, i seem to get the feeling that i can do more... why?? aargh!!! sux.... don't wanna have this feeling.... but don't know what to do to get rid of it too.... can someone help me?
hmm.... sometimes, i really don't know how i'm suppose to see things... so, not really seeing it... perhaps, that's good in a way... hiaz, don't know... see how it goes.... that's all! shall enjoy my day tmr!
seem to have things i wanna do... even if i have done it, i seem to get the feeling that i can do more... why?? aargh!!! sux.... don't wanna have this feeling.... but don't know what to do to get rid of it too.... can someone help me?
hmm.... sometimes, i really don't know how i'm suppose to see things... so, not really seeing it... perhaps, that's good in a way... hiaz, don't know... see how it goes.... that's all! shall enjoy my day tmr!
Monday, January 16, 2006
STAY HAPPY!
was talking to yoke and i realised that i have not blogged for quite a while... it's not really good to discover life has been taken over by maple.... so, shall blog now!!!!
can forsee that the coming week will be a very busy one... marketing projects, family gatherings, friends gathering... hopefully, admist all, find time to maple, and tutorials... which is aargh! quite worried abt stats... really must read the textbook, but not really looking forward to it, as it's quite alot... shall try tmr....
was being a model for my sister ytd... yeeks... it's really quite scary to have the attention on u all the time... don't know how the models get used to it.... well, i dun have to anyways...
studied in sch today with yoke.... hiaz, must really study more!!!!!
sigh, our mkting tutor sux... don't know what are we learning in mkting... nth to copy at all, must as well not do the stupid tutorial, since we are not getting any answers anyway... so stupid and irritating!!!! hiaz, feeling kind of bad, as yoke has transferred to my mkting class to get shitty tutors... hope things turn out better, but i seriously doubt so...
ppl are really weird some times... well, they just say what comes to their mind, ain't that really tactless.... and shows that u are really quite dumb in socialising with people, regardless of your academic achievements... whatever lar... just hope that the small satisfaction u get makes up for ur pathetic life....
was just talking to someone i met from maple... quite touched that he remembers that i played the piano.. its been more than a month since i talked to him... it's ppl like these that makes me hopeful abt the world, in a way....
this final wish to all out there... STAY HAPPY! i know that life sometimes seems so bleak and hopeless, and u wanna throw ur hands up in frustration... don't really know, but i choose not to really see things... that's really better!!! to all, stay happy!
can forsee that the coming week will be a very busy one... marketing projects, family gatherings, friends gathering... hopefully, admist all, find time to maple, and tutorials... which is aargh! quite worried abt stats... really must read the textbook, but not really looking forward to it, as it's quite alot... shall try tmr....
was being a model for my sister ytd... yeeks... it's really quite scary to have the attention on u all the time... don't know how the models get used to it.... well, i dun have to anyways...
studied in sch today with yoke.... hiaz, must really study more!!!!!
sigh, our mkting tutor sux... don't know what are we learning in mkting... nth to copy at all, must as well not do the stupid tutorial, since we are not getting any answers anyway... so stupid and irritating!!!! hiaz, feeling kind of bad, as yoke has transferred to my mkting class to get shitty tutors... hope things turn out better, but i seriously doubt so...
ppl are really weird some times... well, they just say what comes to their mind, ain't that really tactless.... and shows that u are really quite dumb in socialising with people, regardless of your academic achievements... whatever lar... just hope that the small satisfaction u get makes up for ur pathetic life....
was just talking to someone i met from maple... quite touched that he remembers that i played the piano.. its been more than a month since i talked to him... it's ppl like these that makes me hopeful abt the world, in a way....
this final wish to all out there... STAY HAPPY! i know that life sometimes seems so bleak and hopeless, and u wanna throw ur hands up in frustration... don't really know, but i choose not to really see things... that's really better!!! to all, stay happy!
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
yay!
haven't been blogging for a while.... firstly, wanna thanks the ppl who gave me presents!!
dear sis, hwee min and hui qi, yoke! jia ying! jh! thanks guys!
and the ppl who wish me happy bday!!! dear pei shan... mz, aunties!! thanks so much!
went causeway point and had swensen with my sister... the new year meal wasn't very nice... so, please don't eat it... we had apple crumble... which was not bad... but was damn full after that... essentially, had a nice time... but then, i poured my water on my sis... haha, clumsy poke am i...
went to charles and keith to buy shoes after that... but then, most of the outlets don't have my size and the colour of the shoes i want.... sigh!!!! just my luck....
went my aunty's hse to visit my baby cousin... she doesn't like me... haha, kids... but seriously, she's damn cute! miss her sometimes, but not close... had a fun time at my aunty's hse...!
maple is nice too... previously, lacked the motivation to train anymore... but then, got it back again... is that good or bad? doesn't sound good? ok ba... if i do actually plan my stuff carefully.. quite stupid... haha....
ok, that's all, nice weather!
dear sis, hwee min and hui qi, yoke! jia ying! jh! thanks guys!
and the ppl who wish me happy bday!!! dear pei shan... mz, aunties!! thanks so much!
went causeway point and had swensen with my sister... the new year meal wasn't very nice... so, please don't eat it... we had apple crumble... which was not bad... but was damn full after that... essentially, had a nice time... but then, i poured my water on my sis... haha, clumsy poke am i...
went to charles and keith to buy shoes after that... but then, most of the outlets don't have my size and the colour of the shoes i want.... sigh!!!! just my luck....
went my aunty's hse to visit my baby cousin... she doesn't like me... haha, kids... but seriously, she's damn cute! miss her sometimes, but not close... had a fun time at my aunty's hse...!
maple is nice too... previously, lacked the motivation to train anymore... but then, got it back again... is that good or bad? doesn't sound good? ok ba... if i do actually plan my stuff carefully.. quite stupid... haha....
ok, that's all, nice weather!
Friday, January 06, 2006
i like the friday today
u have your revenge... i truly hope u are happy in your heart... if this is what u want.... i have never done anything against my conscienc... and i know that if it makes u truly contented, have it your own way... i know that i wld just do my best for everything... and that... i dun wanna say anymore, because tears are now falling from my eyes.... i really didn't expect u to be this kind of person, i was truly wrong.... now that u make me see, u are the one who changed, not me... i have never changed at all... just u.... and i really wish that u can face life straight in the face.... up and alive.... because u are not what i thought u were....
sigh, life's like that rite? things come back to huant u... i don't even know when it started? perhaps, it has always been there.... huant me? what is huanting me? i don't even know.... i'm very sad now, not even gonna hide... no feelings, just utmost saddness.... i know i've never abandon u.... but u did, at most crucial moments.... and, it's just... let's not write anymore.... just that whatever u are doing, hope that u are truly happy....
yes, what's the point of hiding saddness? breaking up of something.... so simple rite? just words, no thoughts to what someone has done for u... just ur thought of that moment... it's really so easy and simple.... i'm caring so much, and trying... but the other party is not.... life still goes on rite? yes, i'm still me, and i know the person i am.... this faith will keep me going....
been crying many times today.... don't know why too... had a nice time today with yoke... tmr's her bday, and we went to eat LJS, and coffee bean for coffee... nice talking with her!!!!! we are getting real old.... hope that through age, we become mature?? more? but then, hiaz, don't we all wanna be young? but then, move forward, we will be truly happy one day....
my twin sis dyed her hair... a promise is always a promise.... hiaz.... hope the colour contrast comes out in a couple of days!
perhaps, i deserve all these things that i'm feeling now.... yes, God wants me to experience this somehow.... i don't see it all yet... but i will one day...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOKE!
sigh, life's like that rite? things come back to huant u... i don't even know when it started? perhaps, it has always been there.... huant me? what is huanting me? i don't even know.... i'm very sad now, not even gonna hide... no feelings, just utmost saddness.... i know i've never abandon u.... but u did, at most crucial moments.... and, it's just... let's not write anymore.... just that whatever u are doing, hope that u are truly happy....
yes, what's the point of hiding saddness? breaking up of something.... so simple rite? just words, no thoughts to what someone has done for u... just ur thought of that moment... it's really so easy and simple.... i'm caring so much, and trying... but the other party is not.... life still goes on rite? yes, i'm still me, and i know the person i am.... this faith will keep me going....
been crying many times today.... don't know why too... had a nice time today with yoke... tmr's her bday, and we went to eat LJS, and coffee bean for coffee... nice talking with her!!!!! we are getting real old.... hope that through age, we become mature?? more? but then, hiaz, don't we all wanna be young? but then, move forward, we will be truly happy one day....
my twin sis dyed her hair... a promise is always a promise.... hiaz.... hope the colour contrast comes out in a couple of days!
perhaps, i deserve all these things that i'm feeling now.... yes, God wants me to experience this somehow.... i don't see it all yet... but i will one day...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOKE!
Thursday, January 05, 2006
tired
it's kind of weird blogging in sch... cos u kind of imagine everyone's looking at what u are typing... then again... it's just my fertile imagination.... whatever... bored now, trying to add drop but it starts at 1230, which is like... ok, now i've add drop... which is quite an experience... anyway, think i'll still have my wednesday free... yes!!!!
now, it's not so bad, for my class, because i'll still have farmiliar ppl with me.... went to the wrong FM class today... which was quite stupid.. luckily, there's nice ppl there who directed me to the right class.... and FM, was quite an experience... i can forsee the problems tt's gonna come with it... sigh... work hard? but i don't feel like working hard this week, because it's only the first week... and i have 3 tutorials on monday... hurray, if i can actually complete them on time... the thing is, for stats, things do not really come that naturally... and how to maple, if i'm doing tutorials... and i don't come home that early today.... aargh!! so many things to consider... going out during the weekends too.... WHY?? do i have to face this during the first week.... sianz.... sch is not fun...
i'm terribly slpy right now... sianz... nothing to do... and there's no maple... sigh... and there's abt 1.5 hr to my lecture.... sianz... i don't feel like doing anything today!!!!!
many conflicts... and the thing is, i've already tried my best... no energy to think abt it... just know that my conscienc is clear....
I HATE SCH!
yoke here to play and to talk and to crap and to cry and to lots of things which I won't tell you guys. MUAHAHAHAHA... we are all turning 20... welcome to the twenties club. NO more eighTEENs or nineTEENS... No longer TEENS... farewell... but be HAPPY!
that's courtesy of yoke
bye guys! wanna go slp le... i hope to enjoy mkting later....
now, it's not so bad, for my class, because i'll still have farmiliar ppl with me.... went to the wrong FM class today... which was quite stupid.. luckily, there's nice ppl there who directed me to the right class.... and FM, was quite an experience... i can forsee the problems tt's gonna come with it... sigh... work hard? but i don't feel like working hard this week, because it's only the first week... and i have 3 tutorials on monday... hurray, if i can actually complete them on time... the thing is, for stats, things do not really come that naturally... and how to maple, if i'm doing tutorials... and i don't come home that early today.... aargh!! so many things to consider... going out during the weekends too.... WHY?? do i have to face this during the first week.... sianz.... sch is not fun...
i'm terribly slpy right now... sianz... nothing to do... and there's no maple... sigh... and there's abt 1.5 hr to my lecture.... sianz... i don't feel like doing anything today!!!!!
many conflicts... and the thing is, i've already tried my best... no energy to think abt it... just know that my conscienc is clear....
I HATE SCH!
yoke here to play and to talk and to crap and to cry and to lots of things which I won't tell you guys. MUAHAHAHAHA... we are all turning 20... welcome to the twenties club. NO more eighTEENs or nineTEENS... No longer TEENS... farewell... but be HAPPY!
that's courtesy of yoke
bye guys! wanna go slp le... i hope to enjoy mkting later....
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
pain
today is the first day of sch... and i actually slept during stats lecture... well, don't know why, i can't slp last night... kept waking up.... sianz.... perhaps, i'm slping too early.... that's why can't get to slp properly... and think that i'm afraid that i will miss the alarm somehow, woke up a few times... yes, i'm mad....
gonna start working hard... got the mood, but not starting yet... also dunno why lar... just know that it's inevitable....
didn't get to talk much to yoke today... hopefully, the screwed up timetable will not be in the way...
went with mag to creative and then clementi to buy books... really walk alot, under the hot sun, hopefully, i will not fall sick....
sianz.... sianz... sianz
body really aching like shit...
gonna start working hard... got the mood, but not starting yet... also dunno why lar... just know that it's inevitable....
didn't get to talk much to yoke today... hopefully, the screwed up timetable will not be in the way...
went with mag to creative and then clementi to buy books... really walk alot, under the hot sun, hopefully, i will not fall sick....
sianz.... sianz... sianz
body really aching like shit...
Sunday, January 01, 2006
HAPPY 2006!
i'm super sleepy now!!! just came back from a BBQ from my uncle's office... it's his annual office BBQ for the countdown... and i strongly suspect my sleepiness is from the beer and red wine... sigh.... i just can't resist acholic drinks during celebrations... haha... initially, i was my usual awkward self... i don't really wanna go mix and BBQ, cos, i don't really know the ppl well? but after awhile, it's ok, just went to BBQ and have quite some fun... the thing abt BBQ is the smell.... other than tt, we all cook together, esp. my cousins, the kids... they just play along and have fun... so innocent and just plain playful... when was the last time i did that? well, actually quite recently... but then, all these is just some parts for me while for the kids, they can have alot of time doing that... so much envy!!!!!!
ok, i should have continued blogging, as usual, was distracted... wanna talk abt my reflections of the past year... and i will do it the tradition way... labling each heading... haha...
LOVE
i've done alot of stupid things regarding this... don't really care to elaborate, but that this is really a waste of time and pretty worthless... do i regret? a bit, i guess, but i got a wake up call because of this... and kind of put me in my place.... so, glad in a way... but at a high price... after all this, i've resolved that this is not important right now, and that i will concentrate on my studies... what the heck, i've come so far being alone... i can live my life alone!
CAREER
it's really pretty screwed right now... results sux and all... firstly, talking abt tuition... it's alright, in the sense, that my cousins did pretty well... i just hope that i can be more patient and give them a better perspective... chinese is still a struggle, but i shall try my best... piano, well, let just say that i have many students having exams this year... and some of them actually fail the previous grade... kind of make me nervous, and really stressed.... but i shall try my best... hopefully, can present a good report card....
INTERNET
this is closely linked to MAPLE... met lots of nice ppl there... and the sad thing out of this, i let it overcome my life... i look back and realise that i did not read any useful books, article of any sort... just maple... it's really sad... not that maple is bad, just that.... it can really take away alot of the realities... and the ppl i meet... nice.... this also includes online chatting, which, is really sucky... gonna cut down on it....
FAMILY
well, gald that all my family members are well and happy in a way... as long as we get along together, there's really nothing more i wld wish for...
FRIENDS
thank the lord for yoke, hwee min, hui qi & pei shan.... thanks for always listening to me....
that's abt it... hope the coming year will be equally great... in a way?
ok, i should have continued blogging, as usual, was distracted... wanna talk abt my reflections of the past year... and i will do it the tradition way... labling each heading... haha...
LOVE
i've done alot of stupid things regarding this... don't really care to elaborate, but that this is really a waste of time and pretty worthless... do i regret? a bit, i guess, but i got a wake up call because of this... and kind of put me in my place.... so, glad in a way... but at a high price... after all this, i've resolved that this is not important right now, and that i will concentrate on my studies... what the heck, i've come so far being alone... i can live my life alone!
CAREER
it's really pretty screwed right now... results sux and all... firstly, talking abt tuition... it's alright, in the sense, that my cousins did pretty well... i just hope that i can be more patient and give them a better perspective... chinese is still a struggle, but i shall try my best... piano, well, let just say that i have many students having exams this year... and some of them actually fail the previous grade... kind of make me nervous, and really stressed.... but i shall try my best... hopefully, can present a good report card....
INTERNET
this is closely linked to MAPLE... met lots of nice ppl there... and the sad thing out of this, i let it overcome my life... i look back and realise that i did not read any useful books, article of any sort... just maple... it's really sad... not that maple is bad, just that.... it can really take away alot of the realities... and the ppl i meet... nice.... this also includes online chatting, which, is really sucky... gonna cut down on it....
FAMILY
well, gald that all my family members are well and happy in a way... as long as we get along together, there's really nothing more i wld wish for...
FRIENDS
thank the lord for yoke, hwee min, hui qi & pei shan.... thanks for always listening to me....
that's abt it... hope the coming year will be equally great... in a way?
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