the highlight of my day. went to watch 2 movies!!! the cursed of the golden pheony and the holiday!!! i absolutely love the holiday! kate winslet was really a joy to watch! it was so touching! the stories were what women really felt and the holidays seem to solve most of the problems... =) went to watch with both sisters..! =) haha.... had a nice time...!

actually, i had many thoughts... after a while, i thought, is it worth it? to translate all out? perhaps, when i've reached breaking point, i might just pour all that's in my heart. right now, don't think it's necessary though... after i have been to church, even before, i've always relish in the peace of my heart. i've gone by my motto of being true to people, regardless of how they treat u. if they hurt u, that's another case. i can't expect others to be like me, no matter how much a friend they might or might not be. i know, if i continue to be true, be myself, that is what really makes me as i am... =)

i had a nice christmas today... went to the church of city harvest... if it was my first time at a church i would probably had a stronger feeling but it was not i guess... it felt really great to be at service, listening to Christ's sacrifice.... knowing that i'm here and am at peace is because of the Lord... i hope to continue to go to church more often. to which church though, that is still a question. still finding one that suits me... anyway, thanks alot to ym for bringing me there... =)

went to causeway point after that... the atmosphere was not bad.... seeing people walking around, basically shopping during the christmas period... went home to see teen's choice award... not bad...! haha.... fat britney spears though... went jogging with aunty after that... feels real good to exercise again! just found a great place to jog even with the rain! yay!!!

hope that tomorrow will be a nice day...!

what did u guys do on christmas eve? haha... i had a fun time! my music sch, querubin music cove's principal organised a music teacher's gathering at her place... we had games, charades, memory game, and best of all, singing christmas carols... after that, it was just getting to know one another better... not a bad way to celebrate xmas eve!! went to get a white chocolate dream from coffee bean before heading for home... my first time trying that, it was not that bad! going to church tomorrow.... it'll be a nice christmas!!

sometimes, i think fate plays an interesting game on people... we were ahead of time before meeting the rest of the teachers... so i decided to sit to boon lay while at jurong east, so that we would have seats to buona vista... i wasn't at the usual carriage and was just commenting to my sis that i would kill her if he boarded the train with her. yeah, the most unusual thing just happened. sometimes, i wonder, do we really have this, i don't know, what u call, connection? i really can't find a better word. sometimes, i really can't help but question the game that is on us. i'm not imagining things, but when i have a strong feeling regarding him, it really happend. weird, really weird. anyway, as usual, i pretended that i didn't see him when he was directly opposite me. no mood to acknowledge him i guess. he did see me when i alighted, haha. but he didn't know i was on the train i guess... so yeah, keep this between my blog and the reader okay? thanks....

was chatting with bh these few days into the wee hours of the morning... bad timing man, feeling real tired nowadays, sleeping at most unusal timing... haha... somehow, we always talk about our experiences.... the thing is, he didn't want to make me sad... guess what...?! not feeling it anymore, i can even joke about it... believe it, when time heals all wounds, and soon, everything will and has become a memory.... trust me, bad or good memories, they will become just a distant memory... have faith...

okay, really have to go to bed already.... MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

i'm now back from genting and KL! i have loads of fun there... not to forget the shopping!! when i say i'm broke, i'm really broke!! no more cash left, i really have to stop buying more things!! so, from now on, no more spending...!! and withdrawing cash! restraint! practise that!!

haha... it was fun hanging around with my cousins. they are just growing up and it's really lame and relaxing to tease them... gonna miss them when sch starts...

i forgot all that i have to face when i'm having the hols, it's kind of a downer when the hols ended... i started to think abt things, and it really suxs... what to do... reality sinks in. sometimes, i wish that i can be more firm like before abt things. when i have decided on some things, i just make the decision at once. perhaps, lesser things at stake before compared to now... don't really wish to be bothered with it right now.

bh is right. what is important is to be happy.... but sometimes, u wonder, at what expense? haha... perhaps, what i lack simply is the courage. well, yeah, that is the reality.

let's just enjoy the rest of the hols, and my bday. after that, sch will be starting...

don't know why, felt so tired today. don't usually have to take afternoon naps during the hols, but i'm doing it now! and twice in a row!! haha, being a real pig...

had quite a nice day, heart-warming at least. went for facial in the morning, before heading to my aunty's hse to have a chat with her and twin sis. haha, it's really nice to talk abt stuff. u hear lots of gossip! esp abt their family lives... =) it' also made me question what human beings are really like, the people i can trust... it's quite scary.... haha...

tomorrow's gonna be a nice day, gonna celebrate ah mah's bday!!! yay! family dinner... haha....

really wanted to go church, the timing is not really nice.... yes, it's quite an excuse. sorry ym....

off to genting soon! don't miss me! haha...

project superstar is so damn nice! the contestants are supposed to sing songs from the 80s-90s period. i was able to sing along to the songs, mostly by sky wu. woah, almost forgotten the simple yet heart-warming tunes that he sang! nice!

hmm, just some random thoughts... sometimes, i really can't expect anything much in return can i? since, in the first place, i don't have a place in their heart. sometimes, i really wonder, who can i really turn to. the bulk of them are people whom i spent most of my time with, but among them, they already have people who rank the far above me. where really am i? u may accuse me of being petty, calculative, well, anything. but perhaps, above everything else, i'm just being practical. really, who...? sometimes, when u articulate things out, it really is much better. i should stop all these praticality thoughts i guess, i know people around me care, i just need to pop by with initiative... =)

going to genting soon! and i can't wait!!! shopping! playing! bowling!!! haha....

students gonna have a concert this sunday. hope they don't diappoint me. don't think they will... =)

actually, i thought i would have blogged about this thing, i guess, i keep forgetting about it. simply, it really doesn't matter at all to me already. =)

had just been thinking abt some things, was packing my room where i came across some postcards. it really made me wonder abt promises that people has made, feelings people had at a point in time. and then, i realise, how easily these things can change... u have always thought that things will not divert from the original course by a lot, but they can. promises made can break. and then, u wonder, how much can u really trust people to stand by u. well, thoughts, i'm sure grown-ups will think. in the sense that, u think more about stuff right now...

anyway, it's the hols, really shouldn't put too much thoughts into negative stuff... am enjoying life right now!! going shopping again! at chinatown tomorrow... gonna get stuff for the trip. in the process, maybe get some stuff for myself! haiz, need to lose weight so that i can fit into those nice clothes. admit it gals, who wouldn't want a better body... haha...

okay, gotta start planning for my bday soon!! =)

it's been econs since i've last blogged. well, i've been quite busy lately, with many things to talk about!! so, i'm gonna blogg properly today!! =)

it's been a whirlwind week after the exams.... phew, the last paper ended on a wednesday. after that, met huiqi and hwee min, where we went to jp to have dinner first. i remembered, after much persuasion, we managed to request huiqi to stay up later! hwee min then drove us to the hilltop area near jurong island. the view was magnificient!! i loved it very much! talked alot, and i really enjoy the time very much. seldom do i really get to meet up with long-time frens, whom i know, will be there for me no matter what. thanks guys...! after that, hwee min drove me home, with the help of her mum of course. haha, the poor gal, she didn't know the way to my house... nevertheless, i made it home, and slept very late of course... hee...

the next day, wasn't worth mentioning very much, i had meeting. enough said i think... haha...

i had something on on friday. hmm, ahz, i remembered! went for a gruelling 6 hr kbox session. wah, it was quite nice, though, we need more singers. haha. after that, we went to vivocity for dinner with the uni pals. my first time there, if i wasn't that tired, i would most probably had appreciate the environment better. i like candy empire though, nice place to purchase gifts for people. bought nice biscuits for family!!

okay, i look like i am reiterating what i have been doing, well, i really want to remember the wonderful memories i have. i'm such a forgetful gal, and i might forget things easily!!

saturday, is the usual piano lessons, really missed piano lessons quite a bit, the music lessons are getting challenging right now. so, i really must perform my best!!!

sunday, the original plan was simply just to go catch casino royale with ym, a movie that i really wanted to watch for a long time! alas, it was not meant to be. the tickets were sold out, and we watched flag of our fathers in the end. i loved the movie! it contained lots of history admist all the gory fighting scenes. it really takes a picture to tell what people want to see, hear or believe. after that, i went to sentosa!!!!

it was one of the best days of my life. i went with my aunty and her family, upon her request of course. =) nothing much happened the first day, as it was already quite late when i met them. i went to watch the musical fountain!! i've loved the musical fountain since young, rather have much of an affinity with it. been there a couple of times, and i never fail to catch it! loved the beautiful formations! the next day, went for the luge ride, must really thank my uncle for it! after that, my cousins went swimming while i watched over them for a little while. went to play pool with my uncle after that and i won! haha, play table soccer, which was really fun too! i think i enjoyed this particular day very much, it's due to the fact i'm hanging around the kids, and they really bring out the fun in u. u have lesser inhibitions, and u really let go. perhaps, have been feeling really down the previous days before, so, really enjoyed this particular day of just pure fun. went to dian xiao er to eat finally! courtesy of my uncle of course... =) nice nice food!!

crash! after all the fun, it's back to reality... had the ntu biz plan competition camp. before i go into that, must mention my first time having steam boat at marina! it was quite a nice experience for a first time. went there with yoke, yoke's roomie and peishan. it was pouring literally, but we had a nice van to drive us there. i killed a prawn! feeling real guilty abt that, well, feeling quite alright i guess. just that it was an experience that i'm not likely to forget for a long long time... hopefully, i have another opportunity to go there! cos it's usually with family members that u pig out! haha!!

the next day was the camp. well, nothing much to say, except that it was a super slack camp!! the kids i was supposed to "look after" were from nj... well, okay, it was quite nice, except that i could have done a better job after making such a gross mistake!!! but then, their attitude was rather attitude, so, yeah. okay lah, just take it for the experience i guess... came out knowing more people, that's more important ain't it? for networking purposes... haha...

glad that the camp was over... went out many days after that!! especially today!! went shopping with my aunties, sis and cousins! got a guess jeans.... and i absolutely love my aunties to bits! together with my grandma (ah mah)!! they bought me my first diamond for my 21st bday! love them to bits!! muacks! muacks!!!! i love them very much and thank them for looking after me all this while!!!

so, that's about how i spent my days since the exams... haha, going to genting and KL next week... hmm, better enjoy myself before the results and semester starts! next, gonna plan for my bday!! hee, should be fun!! happy hols!