i was out the whole time today... feeling quite tired now... kind of feel exhilarated now... i managed to complete about 35 questions of integration... at last, start of the great study adventure... haha... peishan was real good company... hmm... made me laugh... that has not happened for quite a while... i'm usually doing the cheering up for people... must get her to study with me more... yar, yes dear, i will try to find the solution to the complex question on complex numbers... finally, mastered the use of pun... ok, get it, i'm real dumb...
shrek 2 was real cool... the satire on fairytales was very obvious, but i love every moment of the show... it started off well, with the obnoxious prince charming dictating his ever-so-wonderful skills on fighting... followed on was his equally evil and ambitious mummy dear, the fairy godmother, who plotted and casted spells to help his son get princess fiona... the puss-in-boots was wondeful too, with the woebegone expression that just melted my heart... he's so cute, with the accent and dance moves... for about an hour and half, i was spellbounded into another world, forgetting my common test... yeah~!!
saw a bag at metro before heading for home... it's the first time ever i saw a shopping bag and fell in love with it... however, i'm quite broke now, though i was very tempted to buy it, with the emphasis on the word tempted... hiaz, shall wait for my pay, due in two weeks to buy the bag, hopefully, it will not go out of stock... bought socks though... don't think i really need it, have too many... but then, i saw my younger sis looking at the socks with some yearning, so i thouhgt, what the heck, buy it, share with her, with me paying the larger share as usual, i'm nice... hee~!
hope my sis does well for the os, cos she's quite sad, boderline passes, with my parents breathing down her neck... she has no chance to enjoy sweet 16... haha... anyway, there's stupid sudden triple s meeting at 12 tomorrow... what the heck... hiaz... really can't wait... haiz... till tomorrow then...
Monday, May 31, 2004
Sunday, May 30, 2004
yearning
after using this blog for about 2 months (i think), i have not yet discovered how to change the background, etc... kind of useless... i've tried, but to avail... hiaz... shall work harder during the hols...
the hols have started for about 2 days, have not done anything constructive, maybe like 6 questions on integration... i'm going to toa payoh library with pei shan tomorrow... hopefully, that will get my rusty gears creaking... she always has a knack for studying with a chatterbox like me and the calm influence may just rub off on me... gonna watch shrek 2 tomorrow night too... it's free... my aunt is gonna pay for it... so thanks~!!
i've just realise what is the true meaning of the grass is always greener on the other side... it also equals to not treasuring what is in front of u until the person/thing is gone... i don't understand why am i thinking of u quite often... am i mourning for something that could have been? am i regretting for treating you coldly? am i starting to feel towards u? those are my rhetorical questions, however, the answer is grey... hiaz... i really don't know what to feel or think... i see how it goes...
hmm... the geography students are on a field trip to malaysia, to look at stones... how cool and fun is that? at least, they have some useful distraction before the mugging starts... talking about mugging, everyone around me seems to be studying, or trying real hard to... it's kind of amusing... suddenly, there's a lightbulb flashing frantically around me... it says "START STUDYING!!" ok, just being the ultimate lamer...
anyway, looking forward to tomorrow, maybe, i'll get pei shan to decipher my muddled thoughts and feelings... can't wait to talk to her... so long, till tomorrow...
bette milder - from a distance
From a distance the world looks blue and green,
and the snow-capped mountains white.
From a distance the ocean meets the stream,
and the eagle takes to flight.
From a distance, there is harmony,
and it echoes through the land.
It's the voice of hope, it's the voice of peace,
it's the voice of every man.
From a distance we all have enough,
and no one is in need.
And there are no guns, no bombs, and no disease,
no hungry mouths to feed.
From a distance we are instruments
marching in a common band.
Playing songs of hope, playing songs of peace.
They're the songs of every man.
God is watching us. God is watching us.
God is watching us from a distance.
From a distance you look like my friend,
even though we are at war.
From a distance I just cannot comprehend
what all this fighting is for.
From a distance there is harmony,
and it echoes through the land.
And it's the hope of hopes, it's the love of loves,
it's the heart of every man.
It's the hope of hopes, it's the love of loves.
This is the song of every man.
And God is watching us, God is watching us,
God is watching us from a distance.
Oh, God is watching us, God is watching.
God is watching us from a distance.
just like the words... sounds calm, unlike the world we are living in...
the hols have started for about 2 days, have not done anything constructive, maybe like 6 questions on integration... i'm going to toa payoh library with pei shan tomorrow... hopefully, that will get my rusty gears creaking... she always has a knack for studying with a chatterbox like me and the calm influence may just rub off on me... gonna watch shrek 2 tomorrow night too... it's free... my aunt is gonna pay for it... so thanks~!!
i've just realise what is the true meaning of the grass is always greener on the other side... it also equals to not treasuring what is in front of u until the person/thing is gone... i don't understand why am i thinking of u quite often... am i mourning for something that could have been? am i regretting for treating you coldly? am i starting to feel towards u? those are my rhetorical questions, however, the answer is grey... hiaz... i really don't know what to feel or think... i see how it goes...
hmm... the geography students are on a field trip to malaysia, to look at stones... how cool and fun is that? at least, they have some useful distraction before the mugging starts... talking about mugging, everyone around me seems to be studying, or trying real hard to... it's kind of amusing... suddenly, there's a lightbulb flashing frantically around me... it says "START STUDYING!!" ok, just being the ultimate lamer...
anyway, looking forward to tomorrow, maybe, i'll get pei shan to decipher my muddled thoughts and feelings... can't wait to talk to her... so long, till tomorrow...
bette milder - from a distance
From a distance the world looks blue and green,
and the snow-capped mountains white.
From a distance the ocean meets the stream,
and the eagle takes to flight.
From a distance, there is harmony,
and it echoes through the land.
It's the voice of hope, it's the voice of peace,
it's the voice of every man.
From a distance we all have enough,
and no one is in need.
And there are no guns, no bombs, and no disease,
no hungry mouths to feed.
From a distance we are instruments
marching in a common band.
Playing songs of hope, playing songs of peace.
They're the songs of every man.
God is watching us. God is watching us.
God is watching us from a distance.
From a distance you look like my friend,
even though we are at war.
From a distance I just cannot comprehend
what all this fighting is for.
From a distance there is harmony,
and it echoes through the land.
And it's the hope of hopes, it's the love of loves,
it's the heart of every man.
It's the hope of hopes, it's the love of loves.
This is the song of every man.
And God is watching us, God is watching us,
God is watching us from a distance.
Oh, God is watching us, God is watching.
God is watching us from a distance.
just like the words... sounds calm, unlike the world we are living in...
Saturday, May 29, 2004
playing
today's the first day of the hols~!! my joy is undescriable... i can relax but have to study for the common tests... thats definitely a downer... hiaz... that's just jc life... 5 more months to liberation from the damn education system which leaves everyone physically and mentally exhausted~!! yeah~!!
guitar ended officially yesterday... gonna miss some of the frens in guitar whom i seldom see during school times... hmm... i have this guitar friend who is so passionate about saxophone that it is very uplifiting to hear him talk about it... hope he fulfill his dreams to study it in japan~!! hmm... when i hear him talk about his ambitions, i wonder about mine... that's kind of depressing... don't really know what i really want... hiaz... decide when the time comes then...
have to go back to school on thursday and friday... remedial lessons... hiaz... part and parcel of school life... by the way, we have changed econs tutor... apparently, he had too heavy a lot and have no say in giving which class up... haha... actually, by common sense, the hod will surely want to take our class... our econs results are quite pathetic... is she doesn't, i think she's afraid that the a level results will be quite an experience for her... haha...
hmm... let's talk about my plans for the hols... gonna cut my hair, watch a lot of movies, hopefully meet many friends to catch up with... really miss them... of course, not missing out playing rollercoaster tycoon (love it) and groan... study... i think that's what everyone's fretting about...
anyway, gonna leave with this song...
air supply - all out of love
I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow can bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was wrong
I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long, lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too?
Does the feeling seem oh, so right?
And what would you say if I called on you now?
And said that I can't hold on?
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
Ooh, what are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong, so wrong
guitar ended officially yesterday... gonna miss some of the frens in guitar whom i seldom see during school times... hmm... i have this guitar friend who is so passionate about saxophone that it is very uplifiting to hear him talk about it... hope he fulfill his dreams to study it in japan~!! hmm... when i hear him talk about his ambitions, i wonder about mine... that's kind of depressing... don't really know what i really want... hiaz... decide when the time comes then...
have to go back to school on thursday and friday... remedial lessons... hiaz... part and parcel of school life... by the way, we have changed econs tutor... apparently, he had too heavy a lot and have no say in giving which class up... haha... actually, by common sense, the hod will surely want to take our class... our econs results are quite pathetic... is she doesn't, i think she's afraid that the a level results will be quite an experience for her... haha...
hmm... let's talk about my plans for the hols... gonna cut my hair, watch a lot of movies, hopefully meet many friends to catch up with... really miss them... of course, not missing out playing rollercoaster tycoon (love it) and groan... study... i think that's what everyone's fretting about...
anyway, gonna leave with this song...
air supply - all out of love
I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow can bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was wrong
I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long, lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too?
Does the feeling seem oh, so right?
And what would you say if I called on you now?
And said that I can't hold on?
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
Ooh, what are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong, so wrong
Thursday, May 27, 2004
empty and cold
the stupid computer played games with me again... it sorta stalled and i have to retype everything once again... aargh~!! here goes...
just realise that this entry comes after 5 days... due to the never-ending rehearsals for the past 3 days... nonetheless, i'm free after that... yeah~!! can't wait... no more practices... don't have to see the people i don't want to see... some people can be just plain irritating...
many small incidents happened recently... yesterday... i realise that guys who have piror experience in relationships tend to think that when a gal who wants to be friends with him is in love with him... that's just so dumb... where's their sense of fun and friendliness?? strange... heck...
im my entire life till now, i've come across many people, but never in my life had i come across a gut that is so petty that he's like a gal... sure, some guys are petty, but he's the limit... everything little thing is so important to him... i've never felt so devoided of emotion towards a person before... crazy... gals are not as petty as him... hmm... i admit, i'm not perfect, but that's the way i am, can't help bitching...
pon school today... have a dental appointment... that's just part of the reason... haha... feel very tired... hee~!!
tomorrow's the "big" day~!! the concert... i don't feel anything... strange... not even a tinge of excitement... perhaps, there's no bond between me and the guitar group... nevertheless, my friends, hwee min and hui qi are coming down to support me~!! yeah~!! love u guys... my twin sis too~!! yeah~!! kudos to u guys~!! then, it's the hols~!! yeah~!! even better...
haha... here's a song...
christina aguilera - reflections
Look at me,
You may think you see,
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Every day,
It's as if I play a part,
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
But I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see,
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show,
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world where,
I Have to hide my heart,
And what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world,
What's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection,
Someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm,
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show,
Who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be,
Free to fly.
That burns with a need to know,
The reason why.
Why must we all conceal,
What we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me,
I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm,
Someone else for all time,
When will my reflection show,
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show,
Who I am inside?
i think it reflects my current feelings~!!
just realise that this entry comes after 5 days... due to the never-ending rehearsals for the past 3 days... nonetheless, i'm free after that... yeah~!! can't wait... no more practices... don't have to see the people i don't want to see... some people can be just plain irritating...
many small incidents happened recently... yesterday... i realise that guys who have piror experience in relationships tend to think that when a gal who wants to be friends with him is in love with him... that's just so dumb... where's their sense of fun and friendliness?? strange... heck...
im my entire life till now, i've come across many people, but never in my life had i come across a gut that is so petty that he's like a gal... sure, some guys are petty, but he's the limit... everything little thing is so important to him... i've never felt so devoided of emotion towards a person before... crazy... gals are not as petty as him... hmm... i admit, i'm not perfect, but that's the way i am, can't help bitching...
pon school today... have a dental appointment... that's just part of the reason... haha... feel very tired... hee~!!
tomorrow's the "big" day~!! the concert... i don't feel anything... strange... not even a tinge of excitement... perhaps, there's no bond between me and the guitar group... nevertheless, my friends, hwee min and hui qi are coming down to support me~!! yeah~!! love u guys... my twin sis too~!! yeah~!! kudos to u guys~!! then, it's the hols~!! yeah~!! even better...
haha... here's a song...
christina aguilera - reflections
Look at me,
You may think you see,
Who I really am,
But you'll never know me.
Every day,
It's as if I play a part,
Now I see,
If I wear a mask,
I can fool the world,
But I cannot fool my heart.
Who is that girl I see,
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show,
Who I am inside?
I am now,
In a world where,
I Have to hide my heart,
And what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world,
What's inside my heart,
And be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection,
Someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm,
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show,
Who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be,
Free to fly.
That burns with a need to know,
The reason why.
Why must we all conceal,
What we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me,
I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm,
Someone else for all time,
When will my reflection show,
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show,
Who I am inside?
i think it reflects my current feelings~!!
Saturday, May 22, 2004
nothing in particular
just came home from guitar practice... what a waste of time~!! we spent the whole time discussing our outfits instead of playing... i'm glad though... i can memorise the songs... what's left is just the fine tuning... i can't wait for all these to be over~!!
nothing much happened these few days.... ok, just checked my SAT scores... hiaz, even though there's an improvement, it still sucks... this taught me a valuable lesson... don't force oneself to do something when one realises that the result will be totally bad... there's no point in trying.... whatever lah...
was just talking to this fren of mine, sms chat rather, i realise that people value friendship the most, more than anything else... was just asking him if someone in a relationship will eventually hurt the other, is it worth getting into one? he said that friendship is more important and that if getting into a relationship means destroying the friendship ultimately, it's not worth it. what he says make sense, i beg to differ... i think if one values the friendship, then one will not do it, but if a person does not, then, heck the other party...
in gp lesson on wednesday, we watched a video on genocide in rowanda... what i saw horrified the shit out of me... i didn't realise that in the civilised society we are living in, people kill people like a everyday affair... it's very sad to realise that the people doing the killing are accepting orders without questioning, just killing... i think that rules and regulations together with tribal laws must change with the changing world... hiaz...
anyway, hope to be able to finish all homework by this week, there's a lot of practice next week for guitar till very late... what the shit...
nothing much happened these few days.... ok, just checked my SAT scores... hiaz, even though there's an improvement, it still sucks... this taught me a valuable lesson... don't force oneself to do something when one realises that the result will be totally bad... there's no point in trying.... whatever lah...
was just talking to this fren of mine, sms chat rather, i realise that people value friendship the most, more than anything else... was just asking him if someone in a relationship will eventually hurt the other, is it worth getting into one? he said that friendship is more important and that if getting into a relationship means destroying the friendship ultimately, it's not worth it. what he says make sense, i beg to differ... i think if one values the friendship, then one will not do it, but if a person does not, then, heck the other party...
in gp lesson on wednesday, we watched a video on genocide in rowanda... what i saw horrified the shit out of me... i didn't realise that in the civilised society we are living in, people kill people like a everyday affair... it's very sad to realise that the people doing the killing are accepting orders without questioning, just killing... i think that rules and regulations together with tribal laws must change with the changing world... hiaz...
anyway, hope to be able to finish all homework by this week, there's a lot of practice next week for guitar till very late... what the shit...
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
hitting, heaty, hints
pon sports day today... hope that aerius wins... for xiu wen... cos she worked very hard for the past few weeks to do the sports day...
feel real tired these days... have been sleeping late... many homework to do... there's three essays to do this week, on top of maths and econs homework... currently, sacrificing econs to do the other work... hiaz... i think that i need time to read econs... can make it if i concentrate real hard... not in the right frame of mind these days for econs... hiaz... coping better in maths now... hopefully, common tests is alright...
went to watch troy today~!! omigod~!! it's one of the best movies i've ever watched... i'm so totally in love with orlando bloom... so hot... eric bana is not a bad actor either... his eyes are like windows to his soul... i feel that the actors do not have to be naked for 1/4 of the movie... though, it's quite an eye candy... finally grasped the meaning of archilles' heal... love it...
hiaz... have some problems with the matters of the heart... not really problems, but rather situations... now that it's kind of clear (i think), i feel that it's better... then, i can see things in a better light...
have some phrases to write, here goes:
hints,
epitome of ambiguity.
it can bring u immense joy,
it can cause u intense pain.
hints,
creator of destruction.
u can be confused,
u can be troubled.
hints,
why do people practised it?
for fun,
for the cause of heartache?
hints,
i wish u do not exist.
i wish u play a part in my life.
i pray to know what's in your mind.
now listening to dreamz fm, should i stay, local band, quite nice... now for a song...
christain wunderlich - so in love
All alone on a nighttrain
Like a stranger on a sinking ship
Will I ever know the secret to your heart
Do you care, am I dreaming
When I reach for you is that burning flame
Just inside of me are we a world apart
Chorus :
I'm so in love, so in love with you
I'm so in love, if you only knew
I'm so in love, I'll never be the same
Cause I'm so in love, I'm so in love with you
Should I dare to entice you
Will a touch of your fingertips, take my heart again
You know it's been so long
Is it wrong how I want you
When it feels so right being close and
Who is to tell me now that all's been said and done
[Chorus]
You, you never understood
And you were gone when our love felt so good
You unchain my heart and set me free
Or tell me that you're gonna be with me
[Chorus] x 3
feel real tired these days... have been sleeping late... many homework to do... there's three essays to do this week, on top of maths and econs homework... currently, sacrificing econs to do the other work... hiaz... i think that i need time to read econs... can make it if i concentrate real hard... not in the right frame of mind these days for econs... hiaz... coping better in maths now... hopefully, common tests is alright...
went to watch troy today~!! omigod~!! it's one of the best movies i've ever watched... i'm so totally in love with orlando bloom... so hot... eric bana is not a bad actor either... his eyes are like windows to his soul... i feel that the actors do not have to be naked for 1/4 of the movie... though, it's quite an eye candy... finally grasped the meaning of archilles' heal... love it...
hiaz... have some problems with the matters of the heart... not really problems, but rather situations... now that it's kind of clear (i think), i feel that it's better... then, i can see things in a better light...
have some phrases to write, here goes:
hints,
epitome of ambiguity.
it can bring u immense joy,
it can cause u intense pain.
hints,
creator of destruction.
u can be confused,
u can be troubled.
hints,
why do people practised it?
for fun,
for the cause of heartache?
hints,
i wish u do not exist.
i wish u play a part in my life.
i pray to know what's in your mind.
now listening to dreamz fm, should i stay, local band, quite nice... now for a song...
christain wunderlich - so in love
All alone on a nighttrain
Like a stranger on a sinking ship
Will I ever know the secret to your heart
Do you care, am I dreaming
When I reach for you is that burning flame
Just inside of me are we a world apart
Chorus :
I'm so in love, so in love with you
I'm so in love, if you only knew
I'm so in love, I'll never be the same
Cause I'm so in love, I'm so in love with you
Should I dare to entice you
Will a touch of your fingertips, take my heart again
You know it's been so long
Is it wrong how I want you
When it feels so right being close and
Who is to tell me now that all's been said and done
[Chorus]
You, you never understood
And you were gone when our love felt so good
You unchain my heart and set me free
Or tell me that you're gonna be with me
[Chorus] x 3
Monday, May 17, 2004
i wanna watch troy~!!
hmm... chatting with yoke hing now... she is quite sunny... sort of not the mood that she is in... gave me a shocking news... supposedly, someone is going with joanne and i to visit this director in the spastic organisation... apparently, he has some problems... i hope that we will not screwed up... haha... gonna pon econs to go early...
played netball during pe today... everyone was saying i was like the star player... i appreciate their comments... however, i rather think it's a matter of whether i want to play or not... i enjoyed it though...
feel very tired today... slept late last night... playing rollercoaster again... haha...
anyway, will try to live through this week~!!
played netball during pe today... everyone was saying i was like the star player... i appreciate their comments... however, i rather think it's a matter of whether i want to play or not... i enjoyed it though...
feel very tired today... slept late last night... playing rollercoaster again... haha...
anyway, will try to live through this week~!!
Sunday, May 16, 2004
soak up the sun~!
the stupid computer is so rubbish~~!! hang up on me... now, i have to re-type everthing over again... hiaz... here goes...
college day is finally over... even though we underperformed, i feel that we are much better in terms of group cohesion... everyone seems to be enjoying themselves... i think that is much important than giving a polished performance... hiaz... i really miss my co days... anyway, now, the preparations for the concert is becoming intense... i can vision the last week of school doing no homework at all... have to do it now... haha... see first...
went to far east to have dinner with the class after college day... the environment was comfortable and fun... played truth and dare... luckily, i wasn't the victim... otherwise, i don't know where to put my face... haha... after that, we walked along orchard road aimlessly, finally, reaching home at 1140 pm... was so tired... however, played rollercoaster tycoon for a while before departing for my chambers... haha...
went swimming yesterday with my cousin... had a lot of fun... must try to lose weight~!!
hmmm... many things happened recently... mostly to do with the matters of the heart... shall tell more if there's more... haha...
gonna try and watch troy this week... i love orlando bloom... hee~!!
college day is finally over... even though we underperformed, i feel that we are much better in terms of group cohesion... everyone seems to be enjoying themselves... i think that is much important than giving a polished performance... hiaz... i really miss my co days... anyway, now, the preparations for the concert is becoming intense... i can vision the last week of school doing no homework at all... have to do it now... haha... see first...
went to far east to have dinner with the class after college day... the environment was comfortable and fun... played truth and dare... luckily, i wasn't the victim... otherwise, i don't know where to put my face... haha... after that, we walked along orchard road aimlessly, finally, reaching home at 1140 pm... was so tired... however, played rollercoaster tycoon for a while before departing for my chambers... haha...
went swimming yesterday with my cousin... had a lot of fun... must try to lose weight~!!
hmmm... many things happened recently... mostly to do with the matters of the heart... shall tell more if there's more... haha...
gonna try and watch troy this week... i love orlando bloom... hee~!!
Saturday, May 15, 2004
woopi doo dee~!!
something happened yesterday during guitar rehersals... i was relegated to the 2nd row... the reason being blazer was too damn samll... if they told me earlier, i don't mind at all... however, the just told me during the last rehersal... i'm like, what the heck? i was so pissed that i didn't want to perfrom... i worked hard for the front row seat, just a word from the damn vice-principal and i'm sent to the back seat... i volunteered for it and people who don't just get to sit there... it matters to me because that's just the way i am... in the end, ms ng was very nice, therefore, i shall "give face" to her and participate... whatever...
today was another bad day... got back my maths test... i panicked... i'm very worried that i can't make it for the recent topics... ironically, maths is the only subject that i'm absloutely confident in me... the recent results is bruising my ego terribly... i'm real desperate... hiaz... and that ms chan said i'm inflexible... what the heck? who does she think she is... i respect her for being patient and all she does is to put me down... she's sick...
anyway, my bad mood was lifted by many levels because i'm back to "talking terms" with a friend that i had not spoken to for 6 months... i am filled with real joy as we went through many things together... this time, i'm determined to keep contact with him... we are friends and always will be... i can trust him with anything... i guess that some people can just make your day, despite the bad day one had in the morning... so now, despite half of my eyes are covered, i'm filled with an indescribable joy... yeah~!
actually, many things have been happening recently, due to the stupid rehersals, i don't have time to put in entries.... anyway, the vp mrs tan is well-known for being the most hypocritical bitch in the entire world... she is not professional at all, letting her personal feelings get in the way... she just suxs...
have remedial tomorrow morning... then going swimming... yeah... then it's back to sch for college day... so sucky... hiaz... feeling happy though
now listening to some nice slow rock song... forgot the title... hee~!
today was another bad day... got back my maths test... i panicked... i'm very worried that i can't make it for the recent topics... ironically, maths is the only subject that i'm absloutely confident in me... the recent results is bruising my ego terribly... i'm real desperate... hiaz... and that ms chan said i'm inflexible... what the heck? who does she think she is... i respect her for being patient and all she does is to put me down... she's sick...
anyway, my bad mood was lifted by many levels because i'm back to "talking terms" with a friend that i had not spoken to for 6 months... i am filled with real joy as we went through many things together... this time, i'm determined to keep contact with him... we are friends and always will be... i can trust him with anything... i guess that some people can just make your day, despite the bad day one had in the morning... so now, despite half of my eyes are covered, i'm filled with an indescribable joy... yeah~!
actually, many things have been happening recently, due to the stupid rehersals, i don't have time to put in entries.... anyway, the vp mrs tan is well-known for being the most hypocritical bitch in the entire world... she is not professional at all, letting her personal feelings get in the way... she just suxs...
have remedial tomorrow morning... then going swimming... yeah... then it's back to sch for college day... so sucky... hiaz... feeling happy though
now listening to some nice slow rock song... forgot the title... hee~!
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
a story
recent entries has showed how bitchy one can get when left alone to the confinements of the computer. the only logical thing to do is to refrain from pressing the button that will light up the screen. however, when a story is meant to be narrated, the necessary amount of bitchiness must take place.
once, there was a carefree girl whose only delights were music and reading. she is simple at heart, always yearning for the things she wants to do. however, fate have dealt her a cruel blow. not only was she unable to do the things she liked, she has to hide her true feelings because she felt that she was always offending people. the little friends she had felt that she was too sensitive to words and phrases, but that's just the way she is.
she thought that life will be fair to one if that individual hid her feelings from everyone else. what she presents is what she wants people to see. however, she realises that some people are too dumb to see that she is an effective actress. she wonders, " why am i like that? why don't you learn how to care for people?" thus, she set out on this big task to try and care for people. try as she might, circumstances always are such that once she has started to trust and care, a situation will arise to close the little leeway she has opened in her cold heart. therefore, she has come to a conclusion, she has decided to close her heart forever.
she is not a bad student. bright and eager to learn the things she is interested in. however, she did not know that some people like to compete with her. she is frustrated by it. she is one who cares about her own business and detest strongly against people who pit against her in any way. in her heart, the only thing that matters is her own stuff, she can shut down successfully against any sniggers and remarks but sometimes, the competiveness is just too irritating. she has decided to play a game with everyone. she is on the go to provide an incentive to shake people. she wants to win.
stutified by her plain looks, she does not mind that people look at her strangely. even though she yearns for a soulmate to abandon her feelings to, she wants to do it her own way. hurt many times by someone, she swores not to let anyone touch her heart in the romantic way. she will play with anyone that comes her way. in a sense, she is filled with a strong sense of purpose not to let anyone capture her heart. thus, she will be a challenge for everyone.
now, she knows what she wants and is working towards it. she prays that nobody wil compete with her anymore. hopefully, she will succeed in future.
hope u like the story~!
listening to dido's white flag... boring
once, there was a carefree girl whose only delights were music and reading. she is simple at heart, always yearning for the things she wants to do. however, fate have dealt her a cruel blow. not only was she unable to do the things she liked, she has to hide her true feelings because she felt that she was always offending people. the little friends she had felt that she was too sensitive to words and phrases, but that's just the way she is.
she thought that life will be fair to one if that individual hid her feelings from everyone else. what she presents is what she wants people to see. however, she realises that some people are too dumb to see that she is an effective actress. she wonders, " why am i like that? why don't you learn how to care for people?" thus, she set out on this big task to try and care for people. try as she might, circumstances always are such that once she has started to trust and care, a situation will arise to close the little leeway she has opened in her cold heart. therefore, she has come to a conclusion, she has decided to close her heart forever.
she is not a bad student. bright and eager to learn the things she is interested in. however, she did not know that some people like to compete with her. she is frustrated by it. she is one who cares about her own business and detest strongly against people who pit against her in any way. in her heart, the only thing that matters is her own stuff, she can shut down successfully against any sniggers and remarks but sometimes, the competiveness is just too irritating. she has decided to play a game with everyone. she is on the go to provide an incentive to shake people. she wants to win.
stutified by her plain looks, she does not mind that people look at her strangely. even though she yearns for a soulmate to abandon her feelings to, she wants to do it her own way. hurt many times by someone, she swores not to let anyone touch her heart in the romantic way. she will play with anyone that comes her way. in a sense, she is filled with a strong sense of purpose not to let anyone capture her heart. thus, she will be a challenge for everyone.
now, she knows what she wants and is working towards it. she prays that nobody wil compete with her anymore. hopefully, she will succeed in future.
hope u like the story~!
listening to dido's white flag... boring
Monday, May 10, 2004
gleeful
took a blue slip today to pon school... partly because the thought has been on my mind since last night... didn't feel that well... thought it would carry on until today, alas... haha... anyway, went sun plaza with my twin sis... had mos burger for lunch and went this fashion to shop... finally bought my white blouse for the college day... luckily, it's affordable, within my price range...
i was quite pissed with my maths teacher... don't understand what's her problem... we had a maths quiz on probability... got 7 out 0f 31, think that a number of people pass, usually, the people who don't pass the tests... don't get me wrong, i'm gald that the class is improving~!! what i'm pissed about is the fact she always look towards me, wanting to ask my marks... i did not look in her direction purposely... i really hate these few chapters... did not do well in it in secondary school... not that i'm allowing it to continue... i'm practising... the thing is, i have a feeling that she feels that i'm feeling compalcent... what's her problem?? u mean i want to purposely fail?? i hate this kind of life... fulfilling expectations... once again, i want to emphasise, your life is your life, my life is my life... i don't care whether you do better than me or not... similarly, i don't care whether i fulfill your expectations or not...
luckily, my cheerful mood is restored... despite the miminal studying that i have done for the history, i hope i will pass... hiaz... studying for maths later... wish me luck... going jogging later... yeah~! hmm... there's this stupid TAF club programme which requires obese students to run at least 3 times a week in the morning... hiaz... it's so rubbish... i feel like i'm being squeezed dry, like a sponge, with nothing left in me... the hectic schedule this week is enough to make me hurl~!! now, i finally understand the word "BUSY"...
listening to enrique iglesias' hero... like to play this song on the piano
sean paul - get busy
Shake that thing Miss Kana Kana
Shake that thing Miss Annabella
Shake that thing Miss Donna Donna
Jodi and Rebecca
Woman get busy, just shake that booty nonstop
When the beat drop
Just keep swinging it
Get busy
Get crunked up percolate anything you want to call it
Oscillate you hip and don't take pity
Me want fi see you get live 'pon the riddim weh we ride
And me lyrics a provide electricity
Gal nobody can't tell you nuttin'
Caw you done know your destiny
Chorus:
Sexy ladies want par with us
In a car with us
Them nah war with us
In a club them want flew with us
To get next to us
Them cah vex with us
From the day we born jah ignite me flame
Gal a call me name and it is me fame
It's all good girl turn me on
'Til the early morn'
Let's get it on
Let's get it on 'til the early morn'
Girl it's all good just turn me on
Woaman don't sweat it, Don't get agitate
Just gwaan rotate
Caw anything you want you know you must get it
From you a name a mention
Don't ease the tension just run the program gal gwaan pet it
Just have a good time
Gal free up unu mind caw nobody can dis you man won't let it can
You a the number one gal
Wave ya hand
Make them see you wedding band
Sexy ladies want par with us
In a car with us
Them nah war with us
In a club them want flew with us
To get next to us
Them cah vex with us
From the day we born jah ignite me flame
Gal a call me name and it is me fame
It's all good girl turn me on
'Til the early morn'
Let's get it on
Let's get it on 'til the early morn'
Girl it's all just turn me on
Woman get busy, just shake that booty nonstop
When the beat drop
Just keep swinging it
Get busy
Get crunked up percolate anything you want to call it
Oscillate you hip and don't take pity
Me want fi see you get live 'pon the riddim weh we ride
And me lyrics a provide electricity
Gal nobody can't tell you nuttin'
Caw you done know your destiny
Shake that thing Miss Kana Kana
Shake that thing Miss Annabella
Shake that thing Miss Donna Donna
Jodi and Rebecca
Shake that thing Miss Kana Kana
Shake that thing Miss Annabella
Shake that thing Miss Donna Donna
Jodi and Rebecca
Sexy ladies want par with us
In a car with us
Them nah war with us
In a club them want flew with us
To get next to us
Them cah vex with us
From the day we born jah ignite me flame
Gal a call me name and it is me fame
It's all good girl turn me on
'Til the early morn'
Let's get it on
Let's get it on 'til the early morn'
Girl it's all just turn me on
i was quite pissed with my maths teacher... don't understand what's her problem... we had a maths quiz on probability... got 7 out 0f 31, think that a number of people pass, usually, the people who don't pass the tests... don't get me wrong, i'm gald that the class is improving~!! what i'm pissed about is the fact she always look towards me, wanting to ask my marks... i did not look in her direction purposely... i really hate these few chapters... did not do well in it in secondary school... not that i'm allowing it to continue... i'm practising... the thing is, i have a feeling that she feels that i'm feeling compalcent... what's her problem?? u mean i want to purposely fail?? i hate this kind of life... fulfilling expectations... once again, i want to emphasise, your life is your life, my life is my life... i don't care whether you do better than me or not... similarly, i don't care whether i fulfill your expectations or not...
luckily, my cheerful mood is restored... despite the miminal studying that i have done for the history, i hope i will pass... hiaz... studying for maths later... wish me luck... going jogging later... yeah~! hmm... there's this stupid TAF club programme which requires obese students to run at least 3 times a week in the morning... hiaz... it's so rubbish... i feel like i'm being squeezed dry, like a sponge, with nothing left in me... the hectic schedule this week is enough to make me hurl~!! now, i finally understand the word "BUSY"...
listening to enrique iglesias' hero... like to play this song on the piano
sean paul - get busy
Shake that thing Miss Kana Kana
Shake that thing Miss Annabella
Shake that thing Miss Donna Donna
Jodi and Rebecca
Woman get busy, just shake that booty nonstop
When the beat drop
Just keep swinging it
Get busy
Get crunked up percolate anything you want to call it
Oscillate you hip and don't take pity
Me want fi see you get live 'pon the riddim weh we ride
And me lyrics a provide electricity
Gal nobody can't tell you nuttin'
Caw you done know your destiny
Chorus:
Sexy ladies want par with us
In a car with us
Them nah war with us
In a club them want flew with us
To get next to us
Them cah vex with us
From the day we born jah ignite me flame
Gal a call me name and it is me fame
It's all good girl turn me on
'Til the early morn'
Let's get it on
Let's get it on 'til the early morn'
Girl it's all good just turn me on
Woaman don't sweat it, Don't get agitate
Just gwaan rotate
Caw anything you want you know you must get it
From you a name a mention
Don't ease the tension just run the program gal gwaan pet it
Just have a good time
Gal free up unu mind caw nobody can dis you man won't let it can
You a the number one gal
Wave ya hand
Make them see you wedding band
Sexy ladies want par with us
In a car with us
Them nah war with us
In a club them want flew with us
To get next to us
Them cah vex with us
From the day we born jah ignite me flame
Gal a call me name and it is me fame
It's all good girl turn me on
'Til the early morn'
Let's get it on
Let's get it on 'til the early morn'
Girl it's all just turn me on
Woman get busy, just shake that booty nonstop
When the beat drop
Just keep swinging it
Get busy
Get crunked up percolate anything you want to call it
Oscillate you hip and don't take pity
Me want fi see you get live 'pon the riddim weh we ride
And me lyrics a provide electricity
Gal nobody can't tell you nuttin'
Caw you done know your destiny
Shake that thing Miss Kana Kana
Shake that thing Miss Annabella
Shake that thing Miss Donna Donna
Jodi and Rebecca
Shake that thing Miss Kana Kana
Shake that thing Miss Annabella
Shake that thing Miss Donna Donna
Jodi and Rebecca
Sexy ladies want par with us
In a car with us
Them nah war with us
In a club them want flew with us
To get next to us
Them cah vex with us
From the day we born jah ignite me flame
Gal a call me name and it is me fame
It's all good girl turn me on
'Til the early morn'
Let's get it on
Let's get it on 'til the early morn'
Girl it's all just turn me on
Friday, May 07, 2004
my heart is plummenting to the bottom of the ocean
currently in bytes now, voting for the councillors... as if one pathetic vote will matter... thought that we are supposed to exercise our right to vote, however, we are being forced to vote for them... what happened to democracy? think that the school is trying to exercise some authority over us... the little that they can...
anyway, just had this maths quiz on permutation and combination (p&c)... flunked it real bad. got 2 out of 15... it's kind of demoralising... sort of expected it... missed out some cases... however, i should stop justifying myself and practise more... hiaz... i don't understand why people always expect me to do well? come on, people are allowed to have their weaknesses?? don't they? i don't really care if someone does more than me or if someone finishes the tutorial faster or slower than me or if they did it... it's their own business... don't like the comparing... don't see the point...
had SAT today... which is saturday, the previous paragraphs was on friday... i hope i do better for SAT... just wait for the results... hmm... had rehersal today for college day... it was boring and a long wait was accurately "anticipated"... what a waste of time... they are looking for the ultimate excellence at the expense of the students... my guitar teacher, ms ng, is damn boring... nag and nag all the time... repeating the same things over and over again... she asks for all girls to cross their legs... i'm wondering how am i going to cross my fat legs?? can't she think for the horizontally-challenged?? whatever... there are two full-dress rehersals next week on wednesday and thursday at 6pm... what the shit... where am i going to find time to do the stuff i want to do... disgusting...
went home with hui qi... she really made my day... had a chat with her... haha... discovered that she resented something... so nice to chat with her... haven't had a chat with my best friends for a long time... went to old chang kee to buy some things to eat... it's very unhealthy... but i've been trying my best to eat for health purposes... i think i succeeded... bi quan told me she finds the way i eat a little scary... so health conscious... haha...
i have a lot of homework this weekend... maths test, econs essay, and today is saturday... hiaz...
now playing the corrs' sunshine... quite a nice song... hmm... shall put a song lyrics in each entry...
take my breath away - jessica simpson
Watching every motion
In the foolish lover's game
On this endless ocean
Finally lovers know no shame
Turning and returning
To some secret place inside
Watching in slow motion
As you turn around and say, my love
Take my breath away
Take my breath away
Watching I keep waiting
Still anticipating love
Never hesitating
To become the fated ones, oh yeah
Turning and returning
To some secret place inside
Watching in slow motion
As you turn around and say, my love
Take my breath away
Take my breath away, oh woah yeah
Through the hourglass I saw you
In time you slipped away
When the mirror crashed I called you
And turned to hear you say
If only for today
I am unafraid
Take my breath away, oh oh yeah
You take my breath away, oh oh
(Take my breath away)
You take my breath
You take my breath
You take my breath away
(Take my breath away)
You take my breath away
You take my breath away
You take my breath away
anyway, just had this maths quiz on permutation and combination (p&c)... flunked it real bad. got 2 out of 15... it's kind of demoralising... sort of expected it... missed out some cases... however, i should stop justifying myself and practise more... hiaz... i don't understand why people always expect me to do well? come on, people are allowed to have their weaknesses?? don't they? i don't really care if someone does more than me or if someone finishes the tutorial faster or slower than me or if they did it... it's their own business... don't like the comparing... don't see the point...
had SAT today... which is saturday, the previous paragraphs was on friday... i hope i do better for SAT... just wait for the results... hmm... had rehersal today for college day... it was boring and a long wait was accurately "anticipated"... what a waste of time... they are looking for the ultimate excellence at the expense of the students... my guitar teacher, ms ng, is damn boring... nag and nag all the time... repeating the same things over and over again... she asks for all girls to cross their legs... i'm wondering how am i going to cross my fat legs?? can't she think for the horizontally-challenged?? whatever... there are two full-dress rehersals next week on wednesday and thursday at 6pm... what the shit... where am i going to find time to do the stuff i want to do... disgusting...
went home with hui qi... she really made my day... had a chat with her... haha... discovered that she resented something... so nice to chat with her... haven't had a chat with my best friends for a long time... went to old chang kee to buy some things to eat... it's very unhealthy... but i've been trying my best to eat for health purposes... i think i succeeded... bi quan told me she finds the way i eat a little scary... so health conscious... haha...
i have a lot of homework this weekend... maths test, econs essay, and today is saturday... hiaz...
now playing the corrs' sunshine... quite a nice song... hmm... shall put a song lyrics in each entry...
take my breath away - jessica simpson
Watching every motion
In the foolish lover's game
On this endless ocean
Finally lovers know no shame
Turning and returning
To some secret place inside
Watching in slow motion
As you turn around and say, my love
Take my breath away
Take my breath away
Watching I keep waiting
Still anticipating love
Never hesitating
To become the fated ones, oh yeah
Turning and returning
To some secret place inside
Watching in slow motion
As you turn around and say, my love
Take my breath away
Take my breath away, oh woah yeah
Through the hourglass I saw you
In time you slipped away
When the mirror crashed I called you
And turned to hear you say
If only for today
I am unafraid
Take my breath away, oh oh yeah
You take my breath away, oh oh
(Take my breath away)
You take my breath
You take my breath
You take my breath away
(Take my breath away)
You take my breath away
You take my breath away
You take my breath away
Thursday, May 06, 2004
better late than never
this is my first entry after 4 days~!! i was battling against tiredness and the many homework i can't seem to complete... together with the SAT and the supposed maths test on friday, i was ready to throw in the towel and call in quits and forget the whole thing... luckily, things worked out just fine... the maths test is postponed to next tuesday... on my own initiative, i took a day off today to study... haha... about to finish my econs tuition homework, an essay that is impossibly long... i feel that the tutors in school should adopt my tuition teacher's method in giving essay assignments... they should tell us how to do so that we will do it correctly, creating a better impression so that we can do well in exams... since most of us do not know what to write... strangely, the school thinks otherwise...
went to this scuba diver's shop on monday with yi ling for some yep stuff... bonded with yi ling... yeah~!! she's so health conscious... must learn from her... haha... i guess that people who's into sports don't like to talk much... throughout the whole meeting, yi ling doing the main conversing, the diver seems not to know what to say, seldom taking his own initiative (erm, we too), so the meeting was mainly long silences in between... after that, both of us went bugis to eat and shop... didn't know that bugis is such a colossal building... must go shop with my sis when the next opportunity beckons...
had cca until 6 yesterday... sometimes, i really detest the teacher-in-charge... can't she see that all of us were so tired... the playing sounded like that too... hiaz... there's a college day rehearsal on saturday... i can envisage another wasted day... i have a lot of homework this weekend... hiaz...
now listening to sheryl crow's and kid rock's picture... quite a nice song... here goes britney spear's everytime... wanna share this beautiful song...
Notice me, take my hand
Why are we strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me
Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
I make believe that you are here
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry
At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away
And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
hope you like it...
went to this scuba diver's shop on monday with yi ling for some yep stuff... bonded with yi ling... yeah~!! she's so health conscious... must learn from her... haha... i guess that people who's into sports don't like to talk much... throughout the whole meeting, yi ling doing the main conversing, the diver seems not to know what to say, seldom taking his own initiative (erm, we too), so the meeting was mainly long silences in between... after that, both of us went bugis to eat and shop... didn't know that bugis is such a colossal building... must go shop with my sis when the next opportunity beckons...
had cca until 6 yesterday... sometimes, i really detest the teacher-in-charge... can't she see that all of us were so tired... the playing sounded like that too... hiaz... there's a college day rehearsal on saturday... i can envisage another wasted day... i have a lot of homework this weekend... hiaz...
now listening to sheryl crow's and kid rock's picture... quite a nice song... here goes britney spear's everytime... wanna share this beautiful song...
Notice me, take my hand
Why are we strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me
Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
I make believe that you are here
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry
At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away
And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
hope you like it...
Saturday, May 01, 2004
i wish for a fairy to fly me away from all this...
i'm in a pissed mood... studying for the SATs... hiaz, i signed up for it, what can i say? sometimes, i feel that studying is a chore... it is always there, never going away... i wish i can say poof~! and i can stop studying forever...
was supposed to go to some yep training session today... choose to skip it to study my SATs... studied some already... hope i can do well... hiaz... in a sianz mood now...
gonna have buffet dinner tonight... it's a mother's day celebration... hopefully, my bad mood will dispearse... whatever...
anyway, listening to this song, quite nice, but can't figure out the title... waiting for everytime...
was supposed to go to some yep training session today... choose to skip it to study my SATs... studied some already... hope i can do well... hiaz... in a sianz mood now...
gonna have buffet dinner tonight... it's a mother's day celebration... hopefully, my bad mood will dispearse... whatever...
anyway, listening to this song, quite nice, but can't figure out the title... waiting for everytime...
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