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everywhere ard me is filled with the sound of mahjong... sigh.... ok lar, just that i don't have a chance to touch any mahjong tiles this year... haha... super tired now... ubin was fine, the usual, just that it's sad to see commercialism taking over the whole island... went there every year, and the changes that took place is quite obvious too....

from haphazard roads, to now, roads with directions... simple shophouses, now with bicycle rentals shops and food places.... places of poor sanitary conditions to proper places.... it's all so different... i wld be lying through my teeth if i say that i prefer the old kinds... but it's sad to see bicycles running all over the island... never see so many before... hiaz, its just the thought that the island i once knew is becoming so pretty, yet it's not what i've known... really really sad... and my relatives' hse is being taken over by the gvot too... so, no more visiting anymore.... sigh...

tmr, some relatives are coming... i hope to have some relative peace! yay! wish me luck... gonna do my tutorials... sianz!!!!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!

today is quite a nice day, lost quite a bit at gambling with my cousins... aargh! ok lar, quite fun, since they are kids and money means the world to them... it's all mz's fault, say i will lose... just because i insulted his usefulness.... -_-

was quite surprised when he msg me to tell me he's waiting for the bus... think he's quite bored too, otherwise, msg someone whom he knows will pay attention to him... so, sms chatted during cny, made visiting much less boring... thank you!!!

drank this nice wine that my uncle brought back from germany, or is it austria...? anyway, it's chocolate flavoured and rich with alcohol.... nice!!! now, a bit woozy... not v tired though... haha, so quite a boring new year, the usual, yet alright, in the sense that it's not always the same... i wld enjoy it more, if not for the thought that there will be homework, homework in my mind... life's like that?

going to palua ubin tmr! hope to get a nice tan!!!!

cny's eve

i hate chinese new year... yes, i shld be lucky to have my family with me... i don't understand what's the problem with my mum.... it's not our fault that the new year tradition is such that u have to spring clean the whole damn hse... if u don't wanna do it, it's fine, nobody will complain... say we don't help, oh, come on... the whole fucking world is owing u something?? it's not our problem that u are cleaning the hse, alright... and we did clean whatever u told us to... so, stop fucking tell the whole world that ur daughters can't dress up for new year and look like a prositute....

u have ur own timetable, to wash the clothes... we can't help it when we return home late... and u have to act as though our lives are more impt than anything... u mean, we don't like to come home? well, i don't.... no matter what we do, it's just not enough ain't it? if it's so difficult to clean the hse, and spend some effort without complaining, we will not.... u don't get it? i don't really care whether the hse is fucking clean anot, i just want a mother who will stop complaining and commenting on everything as though we owe u... let me tell u, i don't fucking owe u anything....

i'm really very tired of facing this.... i do whatever u tell me too... and it's just simply not enough... what do u want?? i always tell myself, it doesn't matter at all... all these comments, all these venting of the frustrations at me... i say they don't mean a thing, it doesn't matter at all.... but in the end, it matters... what is most hurting is that i doesn't come from just my parents... i'm not trying to say that i'm a saint and don't show my temper sometimes... i'm nice... that's a fact... and i know i'm being taken advantage of, but simply, what can i do? it doesn't really matter to me, cos they are my family... the thing is, if it's done continuously towards u, verbal abuse, how can i think? positively? i'm trying, really trying... and i hope one fine day, i can overcome everything... really....

and mkting, one member has not sent me her powerpt slides yet... whatever lar, gonna try to finish it now.... irritating!!!!!!

life's good, yeah...

memoirs of a geisha

i'm gonna type a proper entry today.... and not those that i have sorta type for the sake of typing... because i'm in the mood now..... been really neglecting stuff that i do online because of maple, not that i'm complaining... just how life it is for me now.... right now, eyes are rather half-open.... slept for only 4 hrs yesterday.... what else? don't ask.... not complaining either... have been going to class late everyday this week... not feeling really good abt it, because i don't wanna make it a bad habit.... so, not gonna be late for lecture tmr!!!!

just feel that things have sort of shifted between us... i don't know if this feeling came abt because i'm tired, and is imagining things that are not there... i hope i am.... this frenship is rather nice, and i really don't want anything to come into it... innocent or not.... i'm not that kind of person who can crap and pretend things do not exist... i'm just not that kind... who can laugh and say it does not matter... all i can do is just pretend i don't hear anything... so, the thing is, if u really have nothing to say, just don't say it, cos it really does not help in anything.... i tend to say things without thinking, and am now regretting it, cos i think i sent out the wrong signal... i didn't mean to do that... and i don't like the way u answer me... whatever, really whatever.... i'm not even asking anything from u.... and if u really get the wrong idea, then, i think i've seen u wrongly then.... no matter what, really hope that i'm wrong...

anyway, for studies, been rather lacking behind.... really really am gonna start after cny... tt's a promise... don't know why, always feel that i'm not doing enough for sch.... hiaz.... the competition is that great... and kind of hope that it does not get to me....

now, gonna wish that everybody has a fabolous cny!!!!! yoke: hope that u have fun too...!

shld be all.... gonna do mkting soon... rather tired...

oh, forgot to talk abt memoirs of a geisha... it's not a bad show... but i wld not recommend u watching when u are tired... hmm... michelle yeoh is beautiful and cool! gong li is just so wicked!! zhang zi yi, ahh, think she's not that pretty anyway.... i don't really like the ending, kind of does not show that all the geishas shld be suffering... i prefer that, so that i can empatise more with them... but overall, a nice intrusion into the world of the geisha... they are really poor things, the upbrining and even as adults... kind of painful, preserving beauty for what? men... men.... haha... ok, gonna do mkting now! catch the show if u can!!

yay!

am really tired nowadays.... don't have a good night rest... sigh.... find it hard to concentrate in sch... and don't know what's the thing with me and monday lessons, keep going to sch late... hate to go late, yet, don't know why... gotta make an effort to try man...

went to cut hair today... quite nice the feeling of walking through my old neighbourhood... the memories keep coming back.... and the spec shop guy recognises me... haha, was quite surprised... hiaz.... don't know what kind of cut man, like no difference... waste $$$$

hmm.... life's pretty good now... hopefully it can continue... and hwee min and hui qi gave me a key chain with our pic on it!!! i luv it!!!! thanks so much!!!!

ok, gonna go off now... just glad to see that most of the people ard me are in good spirits!

life

just came back from the annual renuion dinner at my uncle's hse... as usual, nth much to talk to the cousins abt... so ok lar, nothing out of the blue... drank beer, as usual... sigh, the usual... just that some of my cousins got attitude problem... quite funny, to see them.... just eat white rice... the company's tt bad tt u only wanna eat rice? sad ar u... how to face others in the future?? sad sad....

ok, enough time spent on this routine thing.... gonna go watch memoirs of geisha tmr... with... ok, shall say more after tmr...

sigh, just hope i can finish all my homework....

good luck to me!

fun day!

just got back home from sch at abt 10 pm.... really glad that i can somewhat concentrate in sch... at least, i'm focused on what i'm doing without any distractions... hmm.... had fun in sch today, playing bridge with yoke, jiaying, junhong and jiaming... crapz.... still quite bad at bridge but had fun... cos the 2 guys damn amused me.... thinking so hard and well, playing and really really thinking... and we gals, just laugh hysterically... the mood was a little tense as well, but we gals managed to lighten it up i hope... basically, we had fun!

sigh, but gotta do mkting project... and the article analysis was rather ok.... but then, feel that we could have done more... don't know why, ps like refuses to put in 100%.... well, i feel that if u can put in 100%, why not? for the final, we'll put in 150% then... well, since it's a grp thing, i shall let it go then... hiaz... whatever lar....

gonna go for family renuion dinner on saturday.... so, maybe shall do my acc homework tmr... nice food, but boring company... how shall i say, just plan bad timing... see how it goes ba...

ok, off to mapling.... hope i'll not fall aslp during acc tmr... coffee is great!