was reading through my previous entries, and i realise that, i have not been blogging really serious thoughts that i have... haha.... it's really strange, when i was reading them yesterday... it seems as though it was written by another person. somehow, i've morphed from an open person to one that is closed up... well, can't exactly pinpoint when the change took place, whether it was intentional or not, well, it just happened... anyway, just sort of noticed about it...
had a nice time recently, well, broke's the word... spending tons of money, but the revenue is unearned!! haha.... hopefully, just want to enjoy my break before internship... and just hoping that internship turns out to be a nice experience...
get more slp!!
12:56 AM
damn. i used to hate it when my relatives say that i'm defensive since young. the need to defend anything that people say about u, just because u think that they are against u or something. now, that i'm older, i choose to defend the right kind of things, the things that are worth, or that it is even mature enough to defend about it. can't understand people sometimes, when they insist on knowing something, yet, professes to be unhappy about it, and, show it.... sigh.... perhaps, i'm just that cold-blooded...
maybe it's just me, that i've changed quite a bit. and, sometimes, it's hard to keep so many things lying inside me, so i say things out like now. yes, i have not been blogging as much as i used to, perhaps, kind of used to hiding things inside of me. my point is, just take me as i am, alright. hate porcupines.
perhaps, people like to think that i treat things as though the world revolves around me. not even gonna try to say anything about that, not worth it. if that's what they truly think, i can't do much about it. realise that very long ago. just that, perhaps, i'm as tired as everybody, trying to do the right things, and realise that if i do feel the same things back, i would be glad to. but i don't, and i don't want to keep trying to feel something when i simply don't.
i've said enough...
1:31 AM
let go. that's the best thing that anyone can do towards anything. i realise that, when i hold on, i made myself damn unhappy. and when i'm unhappy, it's like, so? no sense in being unhappy i guess... so, i let go, not the total good feeling i have, but i feel much better.... =)
even though i harbour no ill feelings towards them, i would truly appreciate it if no one even mention them if possible. it's kind of childish, but, that's me in a way. see no evil, hear no evil. running away, so what? i can't possibly run from them forever, but while i still can, i don't see the harm?
having lots of fun watching the prince turns into a frog! so nice!! i cry while watching it! love it!!!
11:10 PM
