my right leg hurts!!!!!! aargh!!! serves me right, i shld have warm up or something before i play badminton yesterday... hiaz, and i tried to run today... seems to have made it better, but it still hurts!! whenever i try to sit down or even bend my leg... poor thing i am... haha...

well, went with parents, twin sis, and ah mah to this jap restaurant at causeway point for lunch today. hmm, it was not bad, well, didn't really like my black pepper, a bit to salty.... but it was full!!! therefore, wanted to jog, otherwise, think i wouldn't be able to eat my dinner....

i really hope to lose abit of weight during the hols... haha, but i'm quite lazy though, have not run my usual distance yet, well, but i'm slowly increasing, i think... haha...

that's all, been doing cross-stitch, yes, cross-stitch for my younger sis... aargh!!! have not been doing for a long time, don't really miss it... just don't ask me why am i doing it... haha.... been reading abit too... yay!! ok, i really sound deprived... haha.... cya...

i've forgotten to blog abt 2 books i've read recently. haha, yes, i've started to read again. that is, books, i'm talking abt. the first is TAKE THIS WOMAN by Josephine Cox. i like the ideas that she has, talking abt how one trumatic experience, in this case, a rape, has closed the main character's heart, laura, into a cold one. the extent is such that she finds herself unable to love another, till she was in her early forties. there is this fear that is always hovering around her. however, she seems to want to force all the ideas without any thought to how the story should evolve, therefore, the writing is not that well and marvellous. the ideas were, telling us that we should not let any obstacles stop us from achieving our goals. in the process, we must also allow ourselves the opportunity to love another, trust another, basically, open up and not stop what we can, that is to show and shower love towards another.

the other one is IMPOSSIBLE by Danielle Steel. the writing style is typical of her. therefore, will not comment much on it. the theme of this story, as suggested by the title, is that love between 2 is fraught with difficulties and challenges. age, characteristics & background differences are the main ones. however, it is undeniable between the 2 lovers that there is this attraction, passion and bond that never seem to die whenever they part due to circumstances or situations due to their differences. it reminds me a little of my experience, however, in the story, the characters were rather much in love, which allows them to conquer anything. haha, all in all, it's just a story, but it struck a chord in me. impossibility turning into possibility, reminding me of this phrase, nothing is impossible. i do believe in this anyway. what is important is the courage to try, to believe that anything can work.

haha, madness, blogging abt book reviews. well, trying to make my life useful i guess... will carry on to read more!!

i had a great day today... as usual, it was spoilt, well, i have gotten used to it.... so, why do i even bother mentioning what spoilt it? perhaps, just a reminder to myself that life will always be like this, like ain't all rosy, nice, easy, simple and cute.... played badminton in sch with hq, hm & wx... sec sch mates!!! haven't seen them in a while, esp, wx... abt a year... it's great to be with them, the feeling somehow is different... i guess, it's really true that different ppl we hang out we give us different feelings, meanings and purpose.... talk lots....!!! hope that we get to go out often during the hols!!

met zy, he was playing badminton too, a guy from my AB114 class... haha... we somehow played mixed doubles with them, it was fun... as usual, i can't play with strangers, just this uncomfortable feelings i always have... i figured that i have to get rid of this feeling, so that, will be more of me... well, we all have to face strangers all the time, and perhaps, it's time to just know that they will always be there, and i have to cope with it...

talk lots abt stuff with hm today... it's great to talk abt things... hmm, meet many different kinds of people, and it never fail to amaze me how much people can take it upon themselves to think of the worse in every situation... is society such that we always think of the worst possible situation, when it doesn't usually mean or will happen... in the process, we lose out the interaction between friends, which matters most, the building of relationships, which will be the best reward in the end... but, that is really what life is abt? i really yearn for the simplicity of relationships, giving and taking unconditionally... it really is a dream, ain't it? there never is something unconditional. everything comes at a price and with strings attached... and, i have leant this lesson, the question is, have others? or they have already practised it unknowingly?

i've also learnt not to cry anymore. what's the point? the hurt will always be there, is it beyond repair? is there a need? acceptance, i have already taken it. why do u always take pleasure in hurting others for your self-satisfaction? is that all it matters? your happiness....? why not think of others for once? what do u gain from this brief self-satisfaction? that u have won somehow? perhaps, i'm missing something here, care to enlighten me... your expectations are unreasonable, i have never expected anything from u. is this all there is to it? expectaions? what abt love and encouragement? i never profess to have provided u with everything, i can't and never can. can u just take it that, i will always be there for u no matter what, and, is that not enough? i have been there already, it's u who can't let go of past hatred, never sharing, never seeing the need, because, u think i have done something that is beyond reconcilation... but have i? or have u? why must it be that complicated? we are just 2 people, who have a special bond, we can be there for each other, and take it as that. adding complications, hurting each other, in the long run, who wins? and does it matter to have a winner in this? tell me, make me understand everything, i really want to. but i guess, i never can.

life's a bitch, but i like my life, a lot. i never pray for forever, i pray for appreciation of what we have. i have already. i will treasure it and everyone.

i don't really know what i'm blogging, but it's what i'm feeling... pardon me for the confusion.

have been procrastinating with regards to blogging... well, everytime when i'm online, i'll just maple... or caught up in chatting that i forgotten... haha... anyway, it's just the usual happenings in my life....

yoke's back for a couple of days!! met up with her today...!! jm, jh, candy, yoke and i went to jy's house to play bridge... haha.... i really like playing bridge.... anyway, jy's family is so hospitable!! kept us for dinner... thanks so much!!!!

sometimes, when i think abt ppl, a wave of sadness will sweep over me. ppl are replacable. the question is, how much? when i think further abt it, it actually doesn't mean anything, because, i'm the only one who can sense it, and i think the other person involved can't sense it.... it's really simple, because i've expected it to happen, just that, it has already, and so soon as that... how can i compete? it's not a competition, i know, but perhaps, i'm just more sensitive.... think too much... well, heck, i can think what i want right.... and i happen to think this way. then after the other party goes away, i will be back into the picture again, i'm not complaining, just that, why are people like that? so practical, so functional. i'll have to accept it, then. that's it, simple as that.

hiaz... hope this week is as fun as the other!!

my right arm, or rather my right upper body is still hurting!!! it's from the 2hr badminton and 1 hr plus swimming i had yesterday. it also serves me right for exercising without eating much. not gonna do that again... it felt good to exercise, however, it was not that nice to suffer the pain today.... could not even carry my little handbag properly... i still had to iron clothes!!! painful man.

anyway, just being a right pain in the ass. complaining abt stuff like that... haha... otherwise, where's the life?! went chinatown with twin sis after her op today... poor thing, leg and hand hurt... but we still can shop!! managed to buy my pants finally... yay... new clothes... haha....

hiaz, i thought i can go for my kbox session tomorrow, even prepared the songs to sing already. but then, change of plans!! nice change to buffet lunch, BUT?! kbox!! hiaz... next week then...

starting to read books now... glad to be able to read, in the sense, of wasting my life away... but many TIME magazines waiting for me too... haha, since i have nothing to do, must as well enrich my knowledge? yeah... okay... that's it... more outings!!

channel 5 is showing lord of the rings: the twin towers. and i'm so in love again!! he's seriously the most perfect being on earth, with his pretty features... ok, enough i guess... haha...

anyway, went to watch cars today!!!! thanks man, ym, for coming along, and for the watch too... =) it's a nice show!!! i strongly encourage all to watch... the storyline is so damn cool!! with all the characters complimenting one another perfectly.... the most comforting thing is obviously lightning mcqueen seeing sense, and somehow, makes me feel comforted that all will see sense one day... haha.... everyone was laughing in the theatre, and therefore, it's a successful cartoon!! go watch!! haha....

after that, walked ard in hereen's and paragon... must go shopping soon!!! haven't bought much stuff yet, despite the sale, waiting for the price to drop further ba... well, i can dream on, can't i? haha....

ok, gonna go sleep soon... badminton tmr... it'll be fun!!!

today is a very tiring day... walked under the hot sun, along with cousins, grandma, aunties... we went to get lunch at a place, think they just renovated or something..... it was fun!! because, my cousins are full of crap... i prefer them when they are young though, because they can't talk back, be smart alecky... because their big sister here is running out of smart and sharp retorts... haha...

gave tuition after that, but was too tired to go jogging. think it's an excuse... anyway... really tired, think i'm getting old... sigh... well, that's it...

i enjoyed seeing legolas on tv just now!!!!! so handshome!! so shuai!! oh my!!! hiaz... swoon man... one more day tmr to ogle at him.... so pretty!!!! ok, i think u get the general idea... haha.... =)

activity-filled week coming up for me... so, should be quite busy... =)