not feeling very well today, and didn't feel like talking... it's because of the sore throat that i have. i hate sore throats!!! never got sore throats very often, in the sense that, the last one was a few years back. have forgotten how uncomfortable the feeling is, and sianz... and the rest of the body was quite weak too, feeling very lazy and didn't feel like moving... well, serves me right! for eating too much chocolates and not drinking enough water i guess...
today my aunty came over, and we had a ball of the time... went to the food court for some desserts, and then went back to the playground for some workout, they have built some exercising machines in my area. wanted to play catching with the kids, but well, they didn't ask me, so i didn't volunteer. kind of weird. but i missed the fun of playing catching.... hiaz. why do we have to grow up? managed to talk abt stuff with my aunt, and i was glad that i talked to the right person. she asked me this question. how important is religion to u? i have been questioning myself, but i didn't dare to answer it. after i told her, i realise that, i need to do something... hmm...
have been thinking abt the idea of hurting someone... not physical, u get the idea. even if someone is willing to get hurt, it just is not right? it never is, hurting someone, when u know u wil eventually... so, i guess, that solves everything already... =)
ok, gonna go watch grease tomorrow... hmm, hopefully, it's nice? haha....
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
stay happy!!!!
today's lecture was a bit heavy, in the sense, i understood the parts i was listening to, and for the rest of the parts, i was rather distracted by the sms i received, so, wasn't really listening... i would be lying if i say that it wasn't hurtful at all, that i may say i don't care, but i do. it really pierced my heart at that time, and i was glad that i was able to be rational abt it after that. thanks yoke for listening. i guess, i will be my usual self as always, if it doesn't work, i mean, it never has, i know this is what i am, and that i have done my best.
was supposed to be studying with yoke today, well, i did memorise that something has 6 photons, cos, was staring at the sole slide. haha... talked quite a bit, and i realise something, i was quite dense. hmm, don't think i'm thinking too much, as it didn't occur to me at all, and that i'm someone who usually thinks a lot. i really feel like "banging my head against the wall". a nice new beginning?? well, quite open to the idea. i need to forget, and that this may be just the thing to help? i hope so... do i sound like i'm using someone? well, not really, i do give equally.... =) yupz, will be giving things a month to work itself out... perhaps, my faith will be restored once again...
i really hope things will work out for everyone. in general, stay happy, don't think too much, just live life as it is. don't be too nitty-gritty abt things, and perhaps, u'll find that u are not that bad a person after all, and that, u'll be much happier. picking on things that doesn't matter will, u will end up hurting urself, and i really don't wanna see that. i'm contented and satisfied with my life now. are u? no matter what, be thankful for what u have, and don't ask for more. just that, in life, it's not too good to demand for more than what u can give/offer, as everything may be taken from u totally. i don't want to see that happen to u. i will always be there, regardless of whether u see it, know it, want to feel it. i may not be the best, but i try, i may not live up to your expectations, but i try. i'm only a human being, wanting the same things as u do. not the exact same things, but, the essential of it. so, just be happy with life, u may get more out of it then the current situation. so, yupz... stay happy!
kk, got dental apppointment, hope my new doctor's cool!
was supposed to be studying with yoke today, well, i did memorise that something has 6 photons, cos, was staring at the sole slide. haha... talked quite a bit, and i realise something, i was quite dense. hmm, don't think i'm thinking too much, as it didn't occur to me at all, and that i'm someone who usually thinks a lot. i really feel like "banging my head against the wall". a nice new beginning?? well, quite open to the idea. i need to forget, and that this may be just the thing to help? i hope so... do i sound like i'm using someone? well, not really, i do give equally.... =) yupz, will be giving things a month to work itself out... perhaps, my faith will be restored once again...
i really hope things will work out for everyone. in general, stay happy, don't think too much, just live life as it is. don't be too nitty-gritty abt things, and perhaps, u'll find that u are not that bad a person after all, and that, u'll be much happier. picking on things that doesn't matter will, u will end up hurting urself, and i really don't wanna see that. i'm contented and satisfied with my life now. are u? no matter what, be thankful for what u have, and don't ask for more. just that, in life, it's not too good to demand for more than what u can give/offer, as everything may be taken from u totally. i don't want to see that happen to u. i will always be there, regardless of whether u see it, know it, want to feel it. i may not be the best, but i try, i may not live up to your expectations, but i try. i'm only a human being, wanting the same things as u do. not the exact same things, but, the essential of it. so, just be happy with life, u may get more out of it then the current situation. so, yupz... stay happy!
kk, got dental apppointment, hope my new doctor's cool!
Monday, May 29, 2006
i like today
i did something stupid today. i burnt my finger!! i was cooking soup and i thought i could hold the pot in a certain why without using the cloth, and guess what? my laziness paid off, i burnt my finger! haha, guess that teaches me something, not to be so damn lazy!
hmm, my family made dumplings today... not bad then the usual!! so, gonna eat dumplings for a few days! alright!
went to watch xmen today! well, i agreed to accompany mz even though i wasn't that keen on the movie. never watched the previous 2 before, so i thought it was a cool movie!! many say that the previous ones were much better... hmm, well, my first attempt at xmen, i think it was not bad... at least i didn't laugh at the stupidity of comics or anything, it was well strewn together... hiaz, just that the storm and wolverine romance wasn't explored... which was quite sad...! ok, a sucker for romance till the last!
it was a nice day... catching up with a dear old friend. well, something must be wrong with the bluetooth connection. i can't receive the song...!! it sounds not bad too... sianz... msn is not being nice, and now, bluetooth too!! haha....
anyway, hope for more nice days to come... i believe i will enjoy my days!! yes!
hmm, my family made dumplings today... not bad then the usual!! so, gonna eat dumplings for a few days! alright!
went to watch xmen today! well, i agreed to accompany mz even though i wasn't that keen on the movie. never watched the previous 2 before, so i thought it was a cool movie!! many say that the previous ones were much better... hmm, well, my first attempt at xmen, i think it was not bad... at least i didn't laugh at the stupidity of comics or anything, it was well strewn together... hiaz, just that the storm and wolverine romance wasn't explored... which was quite sad...! ok, a sucker for romance till the last!
it was a nice day... catching up with a dear old friend. well, something must be wrong with the bluetooth connection. i can't receive the song...!! it sounds not bad too... sianz... msn is not being nice, and now, bluetooth too!! haha....
anyway, hope for more nice days to come... i believe i will enjoy my days!! yes!
Sunday, May 28, 2006
Saturday, May 27, 2006
the ring
it's becoming increasingly difficult to teach my students sometimes, because of bureacratic interferences and inefficiency. the stupid payment by the students is not up to date, and i have to do it myself, when it's not even my bloody job. the stupid cc, conveniently says, ask your student to pay, when u are the one who is suppose to call them, and not me. hiaz, me being nice, just agree to do it. it really is impeding my interest.
and for students, if u don't wanna listen to your teacher, then don't come and have lessons, i can jolly well do without u. whatever i say, u just throw a temper or show unwillingness to learn, i can be nasty, it's just that i choose not to, so, u better know where u stand before i show my anger. u are already at a high grade, don't listen at your own cost, but don't spoil my reputation, alright, whatever.
anyway, went causeway with mum and twin sis today. bought my sports shoes, reebok socks, had bubble tea and sushi. well, just hope that the black cloud moves faster away, i can dare to hope, can't i?
gonna to go watch the ring soon. i hope it does not freak me out!!
and for students, if u don't wanna listen to your teacher, then don't come and have lessons, i can jolly well do without u. whatever i say, u just throw a temper or show unwillingness to learn, i can be nasty, it's just that i choose not to, so, u better know where u stand before i show my anger. u are already at a high grade, don't listen at your own cost, but don't spoil my reputation, alright, whatever.
anyway, went causeway with mum and twin sis today. bought my sports shoes, reebok socks, had bubble tea and sushi. well, just hope that the black cloud moves faster away, i can dare to hope, can't i?
gonna to go watch the ring soon. i hope it does not freak me out!!
Friday, May 26, 2006
that's normal
silence in the air
u initiated it
i kept everything the same
it is increasingly becoming difficult
to not feel angry
becoming not me
just yearning for a listening ear
i don't say
i just want u to ask
u never did
it's not u to ask
so i kept quiet too.
that's normal.
i question, why become angry?
i've decided, forget it
it's the same old tune everytime
same old boring issues
same old unresolved problems
no point bringing it up
yeah, there's no point
keeping the status quo
as usual
just making the problem worse
that's normal.
who will lose in the end?
that's not really important.
what's important is, can u lose it all?
u can't, and who wants to lose?
it doesn't matter to me
but it does to u
been doing things that matter to u most of the time,
yet, it does not matter at all
to u.
u don't see at all
that's normal.
conclusion? i don't have one.
that's normal
too.
u initiated it
i kept everything the same
it is increasingly becoming difficult
to not feel angry
becoming not me
just yearning for a listening ear
i don't say
i just want u to ask
u never did
it's not u to ask
so i kept quiet too.
that's normal.
i question, why become angry?
i've decided, forget it
it's the same old tune everytime
same old boring issues
same old unresolved problems
no point bringing it up
yeah, there's no point
keeping the status quo
as usual
just making the problem worse
that's normal.
who will lose in the end?
that's not really important.
what's important is, can u lose it all?
u can't, and who wants to lose?
it doesn't matter to me
but it does to u
been doing things that matter to u most of the time,
yet, it does not matter at all
to u.
u don't see at all
that's normal.
conclusion? i don't have one.
that's normal
too.
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